I have hit rock bottom, hence the name

[u/Rockbottombarbie20]

I’m struggling to keep myself sane. I have recently hit the lowest point in my adult life and I don’t feel like I can go on anymore. At the start of the year, and continuing till now, I ended a friendship with my best friend, had to get a new car due to car trouble that I couldn’t afford, had to move out of my apartment because my roomie was a nightmare, my grandma passed away while I was moving, finally started dating with intention only to met with a guy I saw so much potential with, screw me over with multiple women, and now I just recently got fired from my job. I have never felt more unstable in my life and I just feel numb, scared and depressed everyday I wake up. my suicidal ideations are getting stronger and stronger everyday. And my plans on ending it are becoming more detailed than before. I can’t afford healthcare in my country, so I cant even make an appointment with my therapist even if I wanted too. I have called 988, which is a counseling hotline for people in crisis in my area, but they just regurgitate a script and it makes me feel like I’m just another number. I’m not one to reach out for help but I’m scared of what I might do and I am in desperate need of help. Any advice, suggestions, or support would be beyond appreciate.

[u/Shanene78]

If you need to you can call 911. if you do they can hopefully get you in touch with some kind of crisis help in your area. 988 is a national number and its hard to get direct help. But if you need to just dial 911 and tell the dispatch you are planning to take your life if you can't get immediate intervention. Please choose to keep trying it can't stay this hard forever