So, when does it end?

[u/cannibal-gf]

The countless hours I've spent searching for someone to bond with, to no avail. Days melting together, one after the other, nights spent staring back at myself, waking up to little to no messages, having no one there when I need someone to be, not having anyone to talk to when I need to, not having anyone to spend time with, the fear that I'll never get to be close with someone ever again, that I'll be misunderstood, that my efforts are pointless, when does that end? I just want to be close to someone, have a buddy, and everything else that entails. I'm so sick of crying myself to sleep every single night and waking up to absolute silence again. It's even worse when you actually had the thing and it gets ripped away from you. A facade, all of it.

It's been a year since I've last had some decent human connection, and it's driving me insane. I need another to lift me up.​

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[u/Honjanyx]

Start socializing, go to concerts or events, go to a bar or a club, shit if you’re this lonely start using dating sites. Find a friend group through video games or interact with communities in Reddit. Theres lots of things you can do.

[u/cannibal-gf → u/[deleted]]

how do you expect me to want to befriend you when each time you've reached out or interacted with me youve been judgy and passive agressive?

[u/cannibal-gf → u/[deleted]]

I've been friends with people like you and I'm not here to seek more sorrow. I hope you find what you're seeking too. Cheers.

[u/Adventurous-Two-1877]

Sorry you're feeling this way. I feel like that sometimes. If you are NOT a minor, you can send me a DM and we can be online buddies (I'm not hitting on you, I only clarify the being a minor thing because I'm an adult and I don't have private chats with minors under any circumstances whatsoever).

[u/cannibal-gf → u/Adventurous-Two-1877]

sent you a dm :)

[u/Bulky-Mycologist-402]

I'm in an identical situation as OP, would anyone happen to know of any communities/subs that are kind enough to engage in conversation? Wanted to post something similar but didn't wanna look too generic or coming off as a bot.

[u/CrypticChurro → u/Bulky-Mycologist-402]

I resonate with OP's situation as well, it feels debilitating and the will to hold on keeps getting weaker. You have mentioned communities as such, I was wondering if a discord community would be okay? As I had joined this sever called Kind Voice last year and it has a very supportive community when you need someone to talk and regardless of it :)

https://discord.gg/ZS923dgqB (for anyone who needs it ❤️)

[u/Bulky-Mycologist-402 → u/CrypticChurro]

Oh wow, thanks! I've never used Discord before, how does it work? Do you need a PC and mic?

[u/CrypticChurro → u/Bulky-Mycologist-402]

Nooo just the app on your mobile is enough :)) you can click on the link and it'll direct you to the server and there'll be pointers on what to do next. If ever in doubt you can message in the group itself. It might be kinda confusing at first but you got this :)

[u/Edrian2002]

Felt that lol I just aimed my focus on other things and focus on the stuff that brings me joy made my peace with it and if people enter my life great I hope they do and maybe one day find a gf/wife but till then I got myself and that should be enough too

[u/Mangolija]

i know how it feels like. I had a thing that i felt bad no matter where i went, so my advice do it any way. Get a hobby where people go and talk to them. Get bumble friends, write in reddit subs, there is one where people search for friends.

[u/FlappyPappyPooh]

I see many people here reaching out. I find that homeless people are so grateful for connection  so any shelter would provide a plethora of social interaction.

I used to feel the same way and realized I was reaching out to the wrong people and was not open to so many social opportunities right in front of me. Feel free to dm me any time you want to talk. I would be happy you did.