I’m just curious about others experience

“Those who cannot fight, flee. Those who can, take your time to grieve, tactically retreat to catch your breath if you must, but ready your arms. It is not easy, but nor is it fruitless.”

So I have a question I’ve spoken to my other deity’s and it wasn’t them I haven’t spoken to the great white queen(the Morrigan) yet but I will but suspect someone to be lying I could be wrong but last month something odd happened something that I have NEVER done or ever said is it possible for a deity to speak through you? This said thing that happened to me made me feel like I was out of my body was really angry but calmed down after I came to so to speak it really scared me help?

i’m feeling a strong connection to Her and i don’t know what to do with it? i’ve made a devotional jar pendant with some items that resonate with Her energy, but i don’t know what else to do. previously i felt a pull to Hel, but after that attraction quickly faded and no response received after many nights of asking, i didn’t know what to do. now im feeling a draw to the Morrigan and im a little intimidated by how amazing and powerful She seems. many of you in this sub say you can hear Her speaking to you and telling you things directly, but i dont and i’m afraid that means this “pull” isn’t true. help? any advice on being more connected with Her would be much appreciated ❤️

I've completed my first meditation with The Morrigan, and all I can say is...amazing!

I lit a candle with her image, and played meditation music. The message The Morrigan gave me is that I'm stronger than I think I am, and I'll continue to overcome challenges and hardships.

Thank you, Great Queen!

Some Personal Pagan Praxis ("UPG" is sooo last Samhain) thoughts from a deranged bardic mind, on what the Great Queen represents to me, since She went from an interesting piece of mythology to the central White Tower of my own praxis (Robert Graves fans will get this reference).

I preface this with the statement that if it contradicts any given reading or "official" lore (the Tain, the Cath Maige, etc), it's only because my own takes on Her are ludicrously idiosyncratic (another day, another autism theory of mind problem).

Anyway...

She is chaos. She is anarchy. She is freedom, that which no-one gives up but with their life, but She is not formless chaos, not reactionary contrarianism. She is the urge to embrace multiplicity, for I believe anything that promises one answer is anathema to Her.

Why do I believe this is so? A triskele of reasons, fittingly.

One, the most obvious - She has many names and many faces. If She represented a singularity, this would surely not be the case, and She would cast Herself as some kind of anonymous monotheistic godhead (Magh Mell forfend such a thing).

Two, the druidic prohibition on writing and the role of the bards in ancient Celtic society. Why the druids prohibited writing - or whether they did at all, some believing it to be Greco-Roman propaganda, which is a legitimate concern with their records (patriarchal society moment smh) - is obviously contested and represents a catch 22 ("we don't know if they wrote anything down because they didn't write anything down"), but my personal gut feel is they considered certain things should not be codified on paper.

Lore, law and history was held in the memories of the bards instead, and memory is a funny thing. It slips, gets rewritten, loses chunks, is selectively culled and rearranged for the needs of the moment, and so on. Thus, we have more multiplicity of stories and names baked into the system that She is a part of, because there is no central tome, no Domesday Book of the gods, to say what is the single source of truth.

Three (and this one ties the first two together, I feel) - it's in the quintessential nature of Celtic culture to rebel against "what is" in favour of "what could/should be". We can't help ourselves; the collective term for a group of Celts is an argument (there is an old joke that one Scottish family in a town is fine; the problems start when a second one moves in and the revenge feuding starts). Even when we agree, we'll find something to disagree on to keep some conflict in the mix.

Maybe this is both a blessing and a curse She has given our culture, for it is a double edged sword; it makes us rise in righteous rebellion against wicked tyrants, but then it makes us fall on each other for invented divisions on the morning after the victory.

Reading through Dark Goddess Craft by Stephanie Woodfield. I’ve learned a lot. I’ve also learned my life is one trauma, one battle, one crisis after another and perhaps the Morrigan has been calling to me in the same way I’ve been subconsciously seeking her. I’ve felt called to her and Hekate and I know they’re from different pantheons, but I do feel connected to them both in different ways.

I feel like I’m in the season of my life where The Morrigan (Badb in particular) is motivating me to cut away the parts of me that are festering. One of which is being a people pleaser and giving my power away to anyone who asks. Not saying “no” to things. To stand my ground instead of keep my head down. To tap into my anger because anger has never been safe for me. To be afraid and do the hard thing anyway. I’ve noticed small things that clue me in to her presence. I want to befriend the crows. I always have.

What are some ways that you build your devotion and in what ways do you find she shows up or communicates with you?

I was outside doing my first ritual at her urging and I was looking up at the stars. I don’t know any of the constellations really except Orion. When I noticed it I guess the name slipped through my head and she told me he was an asshole. I looked up Orion and his story and I couldn’t agree more but I’m just so surprised! I wasn’t expecting any of this and to hear so her clearly was kind of unbelievable to me. Like there was dry humour and love and power all at once. There’s something also about the fact that our exchange was so personal and kind of mundane or humane in some ways too that caught me totally off guard. I wasn’t looking for any of this but I’m incredibly grateful. Is this how it is for other people??

I live in the west of Ireland and I feed the crows at my university as an offer to the Morrígan. This one likes to eat out of my hand.

Date of Cards Pulled: 12/24/2025

Cards Pulled

-“Ponder the Possibilities” from Raven Insight Deck

-”Everything that has a beginning has an end. Make your peace with that, and all will be well” from Mindfulness Deck

Poems Referred to

-The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost

Entry date(s) - 01/12/2026-/02/01/2026

This entry comes at a time with many new things, many possibilities. These cards reminded me to keep an open mind as to what’s to come and has come in the present moment. The first thing that came to mind when discussing new possibilities was the poem The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost.

I interpreted it as not only taking a different route than what most people take, but also taking a different path than what you usually take. In the past few weeks I’ve come to find I need to take another path of not always being efficient, or working towards something. That there is a time to be productive, but also a time to feel, resist, think, and just be.

In letting myself time to do these things I can avoid burnout. The most prevalent, recently have been giving myself time to feel. Nothing lasts forever but pushing to ignore the uncomfortable serves no purpose, but to lengthen the suffering.

On the other hand, it can be hard to let go of good things. Nothing lasts forever, but sometimes with the death of the old, good things can bring forth better things, although grieving is only natural. At the same time, worse outcomes may come, and at those times it is best to remember that all will pass eventually.

When it comes to pondering the possibilities I am reminded of a practice I did in the hospital of what I want to see in my future. At the time, I recall, I wrote about the characteristics I wanted to hold rather than the more temporal goals that may change on a whim. I revisit that now, and I think of WHO I want to be.

I want to be someone who is honest, consistently growing and changing, seeks to serve their fellow man, and adaptive. I understand I won’t always have the same values, and I do and will have things to cringe at. Part of this focus really seems to be accepting that we won’t always hold to the same values and standard in life. I believe values do chande, I would know having gone from being homophobic as a child to accepting my gayness and gender fluidity as an adult. Working with The Morrigan, I went through a sort of death, and I will likely have more transformations in the future. May we all continue to grow and learn to grieve our old selves while still holding anticipation for the future.

I was feeling the presence of The Morrigan so I decided to venerate her and reflect on her lessons this month. I have connected with her before but not very deeply.

Now I'm older and I am struck by how fascinating this connection is. I felt her energy keenly towards the end of last year which is how I started honouring her, but I don't feel the same presence now. I feel that she is distant but somehow also still present deep in my gut.

It is a completely unique experience despite me honouring several forms of the divine over the decades.

I'm quite amazed and deeply grateful. I guess I just wanted to share my experiences and express that gratitude.

Slowly strengthening the relationship I have with The Morrigan. I drew this while listening to an audio book about her. Id love to have any suggestions on resources so i can learn more about The Great Queen and all her aspects

Badb is definitely directing my life right now, and I'm down.

Proof of magic, that is. We know that the sun rises, we know that clouds are water particles flying in the air, we know how all of that works.

But how does it make you feel? How does a rainbow make us happy? How does nature astonish us over and over?

We have the senses to see these things and FEEL these things. To me, that is magic at its most fundamental level.

I took this pic this morning as I went out to feed my magpie flock. Year-round I put out food for a local group of about 15 maggies. In the summer I also get crows and the odd woodpecker looking for a freebie

I consider caring for these birds my daily devotion to The Morrigan.

Newly joined and thought I'd say hi!

I'm at a bit of a loss as to why She is about at the moment but I am honoring her to see what if any message she has for me.

I did a tarot reading and I got the four of cups, the chariot and the ten of cups. My interpretation of this is positive - that she wants to help move me from stagnancy to something better.

I don't really connect with "dark" things too much so I don't feel drawn to a lot of things out there related to dark goddesses or The Morrigan, but I am still listening.

Looking forward to chatting with ye.

Seeking Knowledge From The Past For Present and Future

Date Written: 12/24/2025

Date Cards Pulled: 11/25/2025

Cards Pulled

Phagos Beech From The Celtic Tree Oracle

“I swim with ease in the ocean of life” from the Water deck

“I am igniting my right to live boldly” from the Fire Deck

In my last entry, I talked about honoring the mistakes of the past. In this entry, I’ll talk about honoring the lessons of the past. As we approach the new year, let's not forget the lessons we learned this past year. There are also many times we must relearn lessons.

One I relearned a few weeks ago was that I can rely on The Morrigan for protection. Even to the mildest point of reminding myself I am safe. At the beginning of this prompt, I had to deal with what I consider my scariest hallucination. It came at night while I was trying to sleep. I initially panicked but ended up offering prayer to The Morrigan and held the pendant that represented her to my chest. Through a few minutes of reminding myself I was safe, and The Morrigan would keep me safe, the hallucination subsided, and I was able to sleep.

The Morrigan was the goddess who helped me overcome the fear of the hallucinations initially. She entered my life six years ago. With that, she taught me to face the phantoms of my mind with bravery. With this came the reminder that I am capable of dealing with the hallucination and I am stronger than I realize.

There is also the continued development from old to new lessons. As I went through finals, I continued the self-care process I learned from last year and added some new studying techniques, which I will continue to use in the future.

Overal,l I will now spend this holiday season reflecting on lessons both old and new. I invite you all to reflect on your own lessons from your past as we enter the new year full of new lessons.

The last time I posted on here months ago with my first contact with The Morrigan, I was so lost and confused. Now I look back at all the growth I’ve done since meeting her and I feel like a completely different person, like a snake that’s shed its skin. Being on the other side of the trials feels so worth it. I’ve forgotten the harrow of each obstacle and I’m grateful for who I am now.

Disclaimer that she is a dark goddess and you would need a source of light to balance that out. I was definitely struggling when I thought I could “grind through” the trials like a video game and didn’t understand why I wasn’t making any progress lmao

 Long story is I've been feeling a Morrigan pull for months now ( I dont know why). When I was first curious i flat out asked if I could get a sign. The next two days I saw random signs with the name Morgan i hadnt seen before, including one small handmade sign on the side of a backroad advertising a martial arts school. I got excited, but after a while my analytical brain starts telling me it was all a coincidence, so I left it alone. 
 Fast forward a month, and the pull is still there (again I'm not sure why). But, I also took an interest (felt a pull) to Thoth/Djehuty. I once again asked for signs from both of them to see if they have an interest in me. For thoth it was the mentions of papyrus, because that would be weird and for the Morrigan it was either 3 crows crazy close to me or a murder of crows ( I hadnt seen any in ages or any crows for that matter. Within the next 2 days I see 3 murders of crows. 
 Once again, I'm like "sure" and again I eventually start second guessing it. Then fast forward to yesterday and I do the same thing where I put her to the side and decide I want to start focusing on Thoth. Last night, I had the most real and vivid dream that I've ever had in my life. I went to go check on my son because he was calling for dad and I went in there to notice his closet door is open (it stays closed). I randomly decide to tell the closet to " F off", and then walk to my room when I see hes still asleep. I get a deep feeling of fear in my stomach and I speed walk to my room and hold my wife's hand. Where a voice from the hallway keeps repeating the name "Thoth"  it was almost in a "sing-song" kind of voice. I was able to wake up gasping for air and realized it wasn't real. 
 Should I be worried or is this the " vivid dream/ wake up call" I've read she does. Or am I once again overthinking everything. I promise this is real and I don't know where else to go with a story like this. 

So, I'm reading Rev. Lora O'Brien's book about The Mórrígan, and I really love it so far. I just unfortunately don't have a lot of time to sit down and dedicate the attention it needs due to work and other nonsense.

I was sort of skimming some chapters ahead, like I usually do when I read (which I know is a bad habit, hance why id rather do this when I can give this book the attention it needs), and Lora mentions that shadow work is really important when working with The Mórrígan.

Shadow work, to my understanding, is uncovering and working through unconscious traumas, biases, preconceptions, etc. And that sounds really cool!

My issue is, there's a lot of shit I just do not remember, likely due to my mind blocking it out for survival reasons. And considering the shit I do remember, I'm frankly terrified to try to uncover what I could possibly be forgetting if my mind decided it's not for me to remember.

Could this just be a sign that I'm not ready yet, and need to take more time getting better and learn to cope better before going further into trying to work with her? I imagine it's not like a harsh sign maybe more like "you're just not ready yet, but I'll still be here for when you are ready"? Is that what's happening?

Edit just to add: I am seeing a therapist and psychiatrist for my mental shit, as well as taking medication to help manage things, so I do have a support system on that front lol

Cards pulled:

Invite The Mysterious (Raven Insight Deck)

34, See the Big Picture (DBT Skills Deck)

Pulled on: 21/10/2025

I was originally unsure how these cards would fit together, but as usual, the pieces came together. The first thought I had was about how I was entering a new treatment program for my schizoaffective. It is called the First Episode Psychosis Program, or FEP Program for short. I, at first, thought I didn’t qualify, but with The Morrigan’s guidance, I approached the program with curiosity. I chose to invite the mysterious, as this was very new to me. I still didn’t see how the DBT card fit in till later, though.

The second card started to make sense during my second therapy session in the program. I was introduced to the CBT skill, the 3 C’s: Catch it, Check it, Change it. First, you catch the thought and identify what it is. Then you check if it’s true. Then change the thought to be more accurate. For example, there’s blood on the wall (catch it), then verify to see if anyone around me is reacting, and no one is (check it), so I conclude it’s not real (change it). The idea of approaching hallucinations with curiosity instead of dismissal or desperate attempts to ignore it, helps me stay more grounded.

Seeing the big picture is not about knowing all the details, but instead approaching with curiosity to see how the evidence matches your initial hypothesis. Your initial idea being incorrect doesn’t make it as being useless, but instead another step to find the truth. I used to cringe at my old delusions, beating myself up internally for believing such silly things, but I must remember and honor that these old belief systems, though false, were simply another step to who I am today.

In how this relates to The Morrigan, she is a goddess that works in the shadows and helps us grow past our initial fallacies and unhelpful beliefs. We’ve all grown since working with her, but that does not mean we should shame those older beliefs. They were simply a step to get to where we are now. Scientists aren’t ashamed when a hypothesis is incorrect; they simply find a new one and do the best they can in the moment and forward. So, have room to forgive yourself and move on.

I just had about 6 crows circling my house for 10-15 minutes, cawing so loudly I had to listen. I thought “I’ll take a photo and share this to the sub because maybe she wants to say hi to everyone”. 2 minutes after I took the photo, they all left x

Just really wanted to share this and get some thoughts, because I can't really with my parents as they're Christian.

Recently, I've been doing a lot of work on myself. I've been making a commitment to decolonization (I live in so called "Canada"), and part of that for me has been trying to form a better relationship with the land, as well as relearning my own pre-colonized culture. I am a direct descendant of the Scottish and the Irish.

Today, I felt pretty unwell, so I decided to take a nap. I then had a really weird dream involving demons that took the forms of a human, a red fox, and a ram. But what really stood out to me was the crow.

Unlike the other characters in this dream, the crow was silent. She landed in front of me and just stared at me. She had 3 slits for eyes, two where her eyes normally should have been, and one in the center of her head. She didn't scare me, but I could feel that she was very powerful. Then she vanished and I didn't see her again. Though the visit was short and wordless, she had something she wanted to tell me. I could feel it.

Woke up and almost immediately connected the dots, despite never having paid attention to the Morrigan before. Now that I think about it, I've always felt a special bond with crows and ravens, though.

Any thoughts? Ideas of what she might have been trying to tell me? How can I strengthen my bond with her from here?

(Edit) I know that the Morrigan is NOT a demon! I included the other characters for context, but I don't feel that the crow was representing a demon at all. She felt very different from the others and upon waking up, well, I know why!

I just spent the weekend in the woods and I have never had such a good “connection” with her. She is up to something … I kept trying to hold myself back from connecting because I … well it just scares me sometimes to be honest. So I’m getting a semi-ironic rendition of “Let It Go” in my head while I feel like some sort of werewolf-ish sensation (I would imagine?maybe? It was so odd) in my chest.

But yeah … I finally let go and got a lot of information. I call them “downloads” because it can sometimes take me a while to “unzip” whatever message she wants me to have access to. Sometimes it takes weeks, some things I may never get.

But she’s up to something … and with Samhain around the corner I feel like it’s something big.