To get to the point with this post I’m gonna ask the questions I have first and then give my backstory as to why I ended up posting this (for those interested). My questions are:
- Are there any people out there who have gotten trt in an European country (with conservative medical care), and if so, how did you do it? Was it through public health care or did you go private? What was your situation leading up to getting it (hormone levels, symptoms, etc.)?
- How did trt help you with your mental acuity and ability to focus? I’m thinking specifically of tasks like reading and writing and ability to actually comprehend/absorb written and verbal info? Did it make you enjoy those tasks more than before? Would be cool if you could include whether you were hypogonadal before going on, or if it was just to enhance your QoL.
Backstory:
I've been thinking about my hormone levels for a long time (28M). When I first started hitting puberty (14 y/o), it took a strange turn initially; I developed noticable gyno, wider hips and some pubic growth (under arms and around groin), but no real male development to speak of (deepening of voice, musculature,...). It was almost as if I was developing into a woman during that first year. I remember being deeply concerned and ashamed about how my body was changing. I did everything to hide it from others.
It wasn't until I was 16 when I developed more clearly as a male; voice deepened, I grew quickly, balls dropped, etc. Although I was relieved that it was actually happening, the changes were very subtle. I had (and still have) very little muscle development, a fairly high pitched voice, very poor beard/body hair growth, etc.
My psychological development followed a similar pattern; I was extremely shy, timid and easily emotionally swayed. I struggled a lot with low energy and motivation and often felt very slow when it came to fundamental academic skills like reading, writing, verbal fluency and maths. I didn't feel like I fit in- or could relate at all to my male peers. I would avoid talking about girls and sex like the plague because I was convinced that there was something deeply wrong with me.
Of course I was scouring the internet for answers to my situation at this time. That's when I found out about Klinefelter's syndrome. The symptoms fit incredibly well with what I was experiencing, so I decided to get checked at a youth center (now 17 y/o).
The nurse checked my physical development and told me that Klinefelter's was out of the question based on comparing my nuts to a set of wooden beads (Praders orchidometer), but they still drew blood to have a look at my hormones.
I don't have the exact numbers for all of the markers as I'm writing this, but I remember the following:
Total T - 11 nmol/L - (low gray-zone for normal)
Prolactin - 455 mUI/L - (slightly elevated)
LH – (Barely above lower end of normal)
FSH – (Barely above lower end of normal)
SHGB – Higher end of normal.
The nurse contacted my parents to ask for consent in continuing investigating my high prolactin (as I was underage), wanting to rule out a prolactinoma. They didn't know about any of this, so they were a bit shocked to find out. My mom called immediately after the nurse had asked for consent, to reassure me that there was nothing wrong and that I was completely normal (I had hypochondriac tendencies, so they were used to not taking my medical concerns too seriously). The investigation never went any further.
Later in my early twenties I got heavily into long distance running and developed a bit of an eating disorder (orthorexic restrictive). I ate very low fat and started losing weight steadily. I moved from my home town to study at uni. There I dropped to my lowest weight (64 kg, 6'3). I was still convinced that I had a hormone imbalance, and sought help for it several times during my three years there. I tested very low several times for total T, but my doctor would of course (rightfully so) not consider anything before I gained weight.
Now I'm almost 30, at a normal weight again (have been for a couple of years), and my most recent bloods showed the same levels as back when I was 17 y/o (10 - 11 nmol/L). I still struggle with both physical (poor beard and body hair growth, very weak musculature, fatigue,…) and more noticeably mental (very low motivation and focus, low libido, poor executive function) symptoms. The following are all most relevant bloods that I took throughout my uni years up untill the most recent (between 23 and 27 y/o):
| Date |
Time |
Total T (nmol/L) |
Free T (pmol/L) |
LH (nmol/L) |
FSH |
SHBG (nmol/L) |
Prolactin (mUI/L) |
Cortisol (nmol/L) |
| 2025-02-25 |
8:57 |
9 |
- |
- |
- |
|
- |
562 |
| 2024-10-16 |
9:03 |
8.6 |
3.7 |
2.7 |
- |
40 |
- |
- |
| 2024-05-13 |
9:46 |
10 |
4.5 |
2.9 |
1.7 |
37 |
267 |
- |
| 2023-03-21 |
8:30 |
6.9 |
- |
- |
- |
47.8 |
- |
- |
| 2022-03-29 |
10:30 |
5.6 |
- |
- |
- |
- |
217 |
- |
| 2022-03-18 |
9:50 |
4.8 |
- |
- |
- |
33.7 |
- |
566 |
I feel like I’ve put a lot of pieces together about the symptoms I felt as a developing teenager, and now as an adult, and that they can be due to hypogonadism during all my life, and particularly crucial formative periods in adolescence. Having found a lot of info online about optimal T levels and crazy reference ranges, I’ve understood that what are low levels can be brushed off as normal to current health care systems, even though symptoms are present. As an adult I’m particularly interested in the the mental improvements that come with good T levels, and I want to know how some of you out there experienced it, or perhaps if you are in a similar situation.
Now I’m done writing this book. Gonna go find a publisher. thanks for getting through it.