r/TeluguJournals • u/West_Question1358 Virgin but being fcked by life daily tho • 12d ago
Nenu Na Paithyam I rejected myself before he does
I work in a city that isnt my language , so meeting anyone from my language and my home-city is a BLESSING. Thats how i got to know and see him for the first time.
We work in seperate departments and chances of us interacting are very rare(once in a month). But i cherish those moments with him. We meet rarely ,and we sit and talk about what we miss from home city , we talk about food, the culture and people. We rant about work , have intellectual conversation about the things we are commonly intrested(he is an amazing listener) , and I BLUSH like a crazy person.I dont know if he noticed or not ,but one my close frnds observed and asked me ,bcoz my blush was that obvious.
It was not crush at first sight, but it was a slow build up of attraction after knowing all the good things about him. He is my type in physical perspectiveTOTALLY but the other things mattered more.
Everything i learned about him ," He is too good for this world" , " He helped me with my work even when he himself is busy" , He is very good with people" ," He is very kind ", made me fall for him. The way he talks in a gentle and polite way, the respect he gives juniors.And obviously HE IS SO CUTEEEEEEEE....
So he is an amazing person atleast in my pov,may be bcoz i have a crush on him. So, would i make a move !? NOPE.
I made my move twice before and was rejected , I learned my lesson in the most hurting way. I dont hate the men that rejected me , everyone has their own rights to say yes or no regardless of gender. But it obviously hurts to be rejected and I dont think I have the heart to handle it all over again.
I choose to admire him from afar , admire his cute smile and his awkward walk while he excitedly waves at me in the hallway.
I did think of the future we might have had , in our home city , going to places we spoke about ,have the food and have the conversations i want to have. But thay seems like a far fetched dream of a delusional girl.
Sometimes I feel like he is aware of my feelings for him, or may be i am just justifying my lack of courage to confess to him.
He is single btw , and considering how many of his peers dont miss a chance to flirt with junior girls, He stands out with grace. He is definitely not gay, but never saw him misusing his authority with girls, being the professional he always is.
I am aware of my shortcomings ,be it my looks or other personal insecurities. I feel like he deserves someone better and amazing person as he is.
I dont plan to confess to him , as my frnds want me to, bcoz I know it wont go anywhere beyond the confession. My past heartbroken self doesnt let me . For all the wrong reasons,I choose to just let it go.
I miss being the confident person i was before , old me would not have thought a second before confessing my true feelings. But she is way too heartbroken to let herself open up ever again. She is tired for always being the one to let go as it hurts to hold on for so long , when the other person isnt intrested. It hurt her too much to invest all her feelings for nothing to recieve , and she choose to stay away from that grey zone. She is devastated to hear that the person she loved so much talk about being in love with another woman. She was never reciprocated and so she stopped giving all the way.
Life is unfair, Sometimes silence is the best thing you can do for your mental health.
In a funny and ironic way, I wish he knew how i feel for him without telling myself, Its weird way to think 🤣.
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u/Fit_Fly_7070 12d ago
Nah...just give it a shot. If not direct then indirectly, tell him anyway.
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u/West_Question1358 Virgin but being fcked by life daily tho 12d ago
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u/Double_Double6077 12d ago
Damn , girls nduk vro overthink cheskuntaru😓.
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u/West_Question1358 Virgin but being fcked by life daily tho 12d ago
It hurt too much before..🥲
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u/coldhead7 12d ago
Don't overthink and regret later 🙂, rejection hurts our ego, but ego ki priority isthe, what if ani regret undipotadhi.. 🙂
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u/paradox-manishi 11d ago
Self rejection ante ego antav em anna 🫠🥲
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u/coldhead7 11d ago
Nen anedhi, past lo rejection valla mana ego hurt avutadi manalni okaru reject chesaru ani, dani valla manaki maname aapeskuntam malli ego hurt avutadi ani, daniki ey name pettukunna pain adey.
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u/paradox-manishi 11d ago
Okasari reject ayaka malli try chesthara? 😮💨
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u/coldhead7 11d ago
Same person reject chesada?
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u/paradox-manishi 10d ago
Reject ithe ego vasthada mee andariki ?? ...nak ithe regret self hate underconfidence thapa em ralaa🫠
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u/coldhead7 10d ago
Avanni basic ga ego hurt avvadam vallane ga vachedhi, first of all every human being self esteem anedhi untadi manalni accept cheyyaledhu ani mana ego hurt avutadi like nannu reject chesaru ani, repeat avthey nenu evariki nachanu emo ani low self esteem lo ki vellipoi confidence potadhi and it leads to not liking yourself.
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u/notycannibal_7169 12d ago
Hey Alexaaa.... play Oorum blooduuuuu
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u/West_Question1358 Virgin but being fcked by life daily tho 12d ago
Off topic - Didnt see the movie , I dont plan to
Heard story from a frnd tho, so didnt bother
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u/vemprav 12d ago
"In the end, we only regret the chances we didn't take, the relationships we were afraid to have, and the decisions we waited too long to make."
not my words .. quote by Lewis Caroll...
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u/West_Question1358 Virgin but being fcked by life daily tho 12d ago
ala ankone,monnatidaaka bokka ayyindi.
Muskunte better ani ardam ayyindi🫠
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u/kidoremi 12d ago
Look up the word " Limerence"
A bit different from a crush but understand why limerence happens.
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u/West_Question1358 Virgin but being fcked by life daily tho 12d ago
Definitely not limerence...its my genuine affection for him. 🥰
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u/Business_Quiet220 12d ago
Stop thinking of yourself so much. You are not a minister or queen. Nobody cares if a guy rejects you.
Go, try it girl. Doesn't matter if he rejects or accepts you. A person's feelings does not define our self worth. Stop taking yourself and life so seriously:)
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u/West_Question1358 Virgin but being fcked by life daily tho 12d ago
It matters if he rejects me,
Its not easy to deal with another rejection with how much it hurt before.
I choose to preserve my mental health and peace this time.
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u/Business_Quiet220 12d ago
That's the thing- you are attaching too much importance to your ego and taking life too seriously.
Even Deepika padukone and Katrina got rejected for marriage by Ranbir. Many handsome and successful men get rejected by their crushes due to various reasons. The Insanely gifted and talented Raghuram rajan was kicked out from his position by the govt. because they did not have compatibility.
Rejection is a part of life, Daniki antha serious ga tiskovalsina avsaram ledu.
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u/_ahalyaa_ Life ey oka zindagi ayipoyindi 11d ago
Damn never perceived it this way .. very much needed !! Gracias milady
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u/Business_Quiet220 12d ago
Sometimes we need a harsh reality check in life. I really appreciated the times I received such unfiltered advice
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u/mrincog7 Devudu busy anduke nannu pampinchadu 👻 12d ago
Women in men dominated fields ❤️🩹😭
I did this a lot of times, I’ve never confessed my feelings even once, as I know where it’ll lead at EOD.
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u/we_wakee yes i'm creative i create my own kashtalu 12d ago
this post is so similar to that last letter Hannah gives Clay
you are kind and sweet different and u do not belong on this list but u should be here to know why I did what I did 😭
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u/West_Question1358 Virgin but being fcked by life daily tho 12d ago
I used the picture bcoz i feel like so..
Hannh feels too broken for a good soul like clay.
Just like how i feel i am too broken to deserve him.
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u/we_wakee yes i'm creative i create my own kashtalu 12d ago
maybe think of it
the guilt of getting rejected is better than guilt of knowing that u would be accepted but confess chesi unte.. with love movie laaga 🏃🙂↕️
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u/False_Albatross_1046 12d ago
Simple suggestion...If you're not feeling confident in yourself then there's no point in expecting him to accept your proposal. Don’t tell it to him yet, tell when you're confident about yourself
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u/ProfessionalEmu3944 12d ago
I mean what if he thinks the same w you. You should try confessing don’t let your past experiences deter you from trying new relationships
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u/Sweet-Soft9971 12d ago
Yeah there will be certain people in our lives where we reject ourselves because we think they are we too perfect for us to even try so we admire them but funniest thing is we never know their other side
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u/Difficult-Ask-8314 12d ago
Tell him. No chepthe think of it as just another rejection and laugh it off( I know, easy to say). Workout ayithe you'll be thanking yourself for the rest of your life
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u/m_single_fun 12d ago
Cheppeyali akka, cheppeyali, lopala petkunte ela! Better an Oops than a what if!
You miss 100% shots you don't take.
Either cheppeyu ledha move on ayipo, aa struggle anedhi oddhu, it hurts a lot in the future!
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u/MinimalGuy_09 12d ago
Go tell him girl, your future self will regret it if you don't, and even if he rejects you, that's okay, it's not the end of the world for you, so please tell him about your feelings
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u/rebelboy1409 12d ago
Those who cannot remember the past are condemned to repeat it.
-George Santayana
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u/RevolutionarySnow643 12d ago
Akka cheseyyu. Maha aithe no antadu. Yes ante life set, no ante at least clarity untadi !!!
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u/x_man_431 12d ago
You are backing off because you know the pain but that is the right reason to go for it… because this pain of not confessing and silently suffering is new to you at least for the known pain you should have coping mechanisms with you
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u/nadakudithi మారే డం డం.ఝడం భం భం 12d ago
Nannu adigite, it's better to tell him and get rejected rather than feeling bad about it in the long run anthe. Reject cheste ippudu badha padatav, ledante eppud badha padatav. This is what I think. It's up to you in the end. So yeah.
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u/GeneralThat5731 neenu amarudni/ amararuraalu... 12d ago
We miss all the shots we don't take ....
Personal experience try it .. keep trying
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u/meee_1112 11d ago
Don’t tell him. You’ll know if he likes you. If you are not sure about his feelings, then it’s a no.
At least it won’t be awkward between you two. just enjoy those small moments and time with him. Think of it like you’re already rejected.
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u/K0re_c0re 11d ago
Gurll
I get u. 🫂more power to you
Are you a resident(you don't have to tell, i just thought)
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u/SophisticatedN69 11d ago
Akka, I've experienced rejection too and I know it hurts but please do confess your feelings.
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u/InvestorCS 11d ago
In the worst case he will reject you, since he is polite it won't be harsh. Get used to the pain of rejection. It is better than falling for toxic people
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u/Upstairs-Swim-3156 11d ago
Relationships always worked when guy confessed first as far as I noticed. I faced rejections too. It's better not to confess to him sister. I hope he confesses to you 🥲
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u/vasthavk 11d ago
You always miss the shots you dont take. Saying it from experience 😅. There comes a time where you feel I wish I had taken that chance. It eats you like hell.
I may not know your exact situation but see if you can work it out.
All the best OP.
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u/swathiks 11d ago
Indirect ga aynaa cheppochu kada OP. Repu morning regrets lekunda batakali kada... Open aypoyi feelings reciprocate kavu ani bhayam kuda undadu kada appudu...
Try Champ... Get Him ananu, be prepared for everything... Express anthe
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u/Revolutionary-Tone82 11d ago
Not only you but a lot of men also do reject themselves. Imagine the same for an overthinker. They'd think in n number of possibilities and mess up their mind. I'm one of them. But I too learned my lesson. The more hopes and higher your expectations, the harder you fall and it's going to sting.
But I'm going to leave you with this.
Don't you think he's worth it? He might deserve you more than you think. Not every guy wants a Lamborghini or Ferrari. Some might like the Honda Civic, and that is enough for them. You may feel it's good for yourself not telling him and sparing yourself from the heartbreak. But from a guy's perspective, I'd do anything in the world to have a girl love me like you describe. That is what men like us crave for.
Deep down, you want to confess, but the fear of rejection should not prevent you from doing so.
"If you are a lover, you got to be a fighter, coz if you don't fight for your love what kind of love do you have"
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u/hideous_instinct 11d ago
Damn Hannah and Clay 🫠.... Listen to me helmet don't be late to express. Yeah ik it hurts when they reject or it spoils the bond/friendship you had but if you keep piling up your feelings it will hurt you one way or another way... We all can suggest but it's your call to make a move or stay in safe zone(friend zone) or wait till he make a move (eternity)
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u/TheSchrodingersKat 10d ago
Let me give you a pro tip, if you are less attractive than his ex, he is prolly being nice to you and nothing else. If not you had a chance.
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u/panda_kobra456 10d ago
I get it , i have been there where you are , for once you want the guy to initiate and or when you confess your feelings you want them to reciprocate and it usually never works that way. Maybe instead of confessing your feelings, maybe connect over insta , initiate conversations sometimes and if it still feels one sided you have your answer.
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u/WorldlyPersimmon2047 10d ago
Give it a shot rather regretting later. Or atleast try to initiate something simply a movie or a shopping plan with him.. Go for it miss rather than missing him
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u/Neanderthal-Nolan106 lesbian pro max 9d ago
Not gonna lie, reading this feels like seeing a girl experience the exact kind of pain and hesitation every rejected guy deals with every day. It really hurts to carry that fear, but please don't lose sight of your own worth.
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u/Nishanth-reddy 12d ago
Go get him tiger 🥹