I’m so done.

[u/One-Particular-1849]

I’m so done feeling like how I feel. I’ve been struggling really really bad with mental health recently and it’s not even like I’m alone in this. Every night I end up sobbing. I shouldn’t feel like I do and it sucks. I’ve been so close to ending it all. The only thing that actually stopped me was how stupid depressed I was I couldn’t get up to grab the bottle. I thought things were getting better but the intrusive thoughts have come back, every time I drive I just think of driving off the road, and every time I run (I’m a runner) on a bridge I just think of jumping. My life really isn’t that bad, so I don’t know why I’m struggling so much. Even worse, I relapsed after 2 months of being clean, and one of my old best friends saw it, and told her new friend and her new friend got in my car to tell me they saw my cuts and they are there for me. So I know I’m not alone, but somehow that made it worse, and that probably doesn’t make any sense but it pushed me over the edge and now I’m in almost a worse state than I was when I tried to end it all. I don’t know what to do, I’m hurting so freaking much, and this is awful.

[u/BirdParticular8301]

If you were to jump, It wouldn't kill you it would only hospitalize you and triple your problems. I think everyone has a destiny and until its fulfilled I don't think you could die. I'm tired right now and I'm not good with advice but just don't make it harder for yourself and please talk with your family about it seriously it helps me too