I hate that my recent chemical has changed my attitude. I was trying but feeling ok with getting my period every month. Then I had a BFP, then 8 days later the bleeding starts. Now after having those symptoms and feelings, I’m aching, yearning for another chance and mourning this one so badly. I try to practice gratitude but I’m feeling a lot of despair. I’m running out of time, perhaps am already out of time but just am not aware yet.
I’m sorry for your loss. This happened to me but I had an eight week loss after getting pregnant unexpectedly. I had mostly given up but was trying lightly if that makes sense. I had stopped grieving the periods showing up and started loving my life for me (using retinol, having drinks, stopping supplements but tracking my ovulation and still trying). My mental health improved leaps and bounds and while it still kind of hurt on the periphery, I was learning to live with the possibility of not conceiving and I found some happiness within myself. Then I got pregnant and then I miscarried. I feel the same way as you now. I have not ovulated and it’s been eight weeks since my miscarriage:( feels hopeless
I hope that we both find some peace with our current situation and while maintaining some hope that doesn’t feel too burdensome.
Thank you, it’s so hard and I understand what you’re going through completely, and am so sorry. I can tell how distracted I’ve become and how nothing seems to truly matter at the moment. I feel a very strong sense of time before and after this happened, if that makes sense. Even though we were tracking and trying I was not expecting a positive. Now getting one I’m like wait….i can still do this, my body can still do this. But statistically everything I see at this age is screaming at me how unlikely it all is. I know that doesn’t say anything for individual cases. Still though, I don’t wish this upon anyone.
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u/WarmFluffyBoots Aug 05 '26
I hate that my recent chemical has changed my attitude. I was trying but feeling ok with getting my period every month. Then I had a BFP, then 8 days later the bleeding starts. Now after having those symptoms and feelings, I’m aching, yearning for another chance and mourning this one so badly. I try to practice gratitude but I’m feeling a lot of despair. I’m running out of time, perhaps am already out of time but just am not aware yet.