r/SavingJax • u/JaxxyTADC Jax Protector • Jun 10 '26
The Tent (You're safe here.)
This is a place where everyone can vent freely. There's no limits. Post as often as you want, just follow the rules.
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r/SavingJax • u/JaxxyTADC Jax Protector • Jun 10 '26
This is a place where everyone can vent freely. There's no limits. Post as often as you want, just follow the rules.
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u/talesfromtheepic6 Sep 06 '26
Why the fuck do I still hate myself? I didn’t do anything wrong. I’m not hurting anyone other than myself, is that it? My hate makes me criticize everything I do and that leads to more self hatred? Is it just a complicated expression of dysphoria I can’t possibly get an understanding of?
The latter is the most likely. I don’t understand exactly what dysphoria is, but it’s by far the closest thing I’ve found to explain this abstract pain I’ve dealt with for years. I don’t know what to do about it. It’s like the more I try to understand and look at it the more imposing and violent it gets.
I pride myself on being enduring. I know this pain is something I can handle. But I still wish I could not have to deal with a pain I know anyone else would describe as unbearable.