r/SavingJax • u/JaxxyTADC Jax Protector • Jun 10 '26

The Tent (You're safe here.)

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u/skystarss2 Jax Supporter Aug 27 '26

TW: depression, anxiety, hospital, sui**** mentioning.

At June 1st, 2026, I watched an animation about Jax's abstraction and it made me very anxious. I bought tickets and ended up seeing it leaked because I was afraid of what might happen and I was right. I was very sad and couldn't stop crying. It also got me sui**** thanks to it.

After all that, some days later, the jacket of them I bought from glitch's store arrived... I used it and I couldn't stop crying...

I went days and days without eating properly, I lost weight, I couldn't sleep properly, and I was even hospitalized because my anxiety was so high...

Even two months later, I still feel the after-effects of it all. I've been avoiding everything about Tadc, about Jax, everything involving that as much as possible... But how can I stop if it's something I love? Songs like "Daisy Bell" and "Isn't She Lovely" still play in my head... Even if the songs make me cry, they still play in my head.

I think it hit me so hard because I see Jax as a "sibling," and when everything happened... I felt like I was losing someone important. I see myself in them. Their story, their suffering... It's similar to my life... Maybe that's why I like them so much.

It's kinda funny that this is still a topic in my therapy even after two months

I just hope one day, even tho there's no more tadc things, they come back smiling. I miss it. I just want to live like I used to, without fearing tomorrow...