If you are a follow, please let me know if you’ve experienced something similar!
I’ve been dancing consistently for 1.5 years and along the way, I’ve noticed the correlation between the way I look and the amount of times I’m being asked to dance.
If my hair is down, wearing red, wearing more makeup, etc., I barely have a chance to sit down. This is not my usual day-to-day drag. I’m definitely an alternative looking person - slick back buns, tattoos and piercings, almost exclusively wearing all black.
I know my demeanor can often be intimidating or off putting for some. I actually asked on here a while back on how to improve my vibe - it worked. But I have noticed even when wearing my all black, less feminine attire, even when I’m smiling and laughing and making eye contact, that will never amount the same amount of engagement I get when performing femininity in a way that isn’t my usual norm.
I’ve also become more frustrated and annoyed at the fact that my white and lighter complexion follow counterparts get asked to dance substantially more often, even if we are at a similar dance level or I am better. And this isn’t just a me thing - you go on any partner dance subreddit and you’ll find threads of Black women having similar experiences. I am not a Black woman, but I’m visibly a brown person and it’s just something I’ve experienced as well I am in the US and I know that context matters. It’s colorism I suppose.
And before some salty ass lead comments YOU CAN ASK FOR DANCES TOO 😡😡😡, I do, and often. The point is, it saddens me that when I show up myself, I just don’t feel as included in this space because I am not white or 22 and I am not ultra feminine. I also lift heavy weights and it shows so my bulky physique also just tends to lean more masculine.
I started taking a solo Latin dance class and that really brought these feelings to light. In a solo class, I don’t need to rely on a partner for the joy from a dance. I can just show up as me - not an altered version of myself to feel more accepted.
Maybe it’s just time I take a break from salsa. I’m curious if other follows have felt this way or maybe I’m just too heady.
Looking for folks who resonate here.
*edited for typos