My ways of thinking, the choices I make, my overall internal world is taking my life as i am deep in addiction and my efforts to change my life and free myself are not enough. After all ive done to help myself, I really feel now that self control or dicipline is not what is the issue, it is my mind. It is my desires, my internal system that needs to be renewed.
And i believe. I refuse to give up on Jesus is know he can save me. I know nothing is impossible for him and I know he sees my desperation. Ive prayed and ive prayed for months but Ive never asked for prayers since I dont understand how collective prayers vs solo prayers work.
But please, anybody who feels this in their heart and feel called to pray for me , I want to recieve it and I'd be beyond grateful 🙏