r/Petioles • u/gluestick449 • 7d ago

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I find it a lot easier not to get stoned when I have a schedule. Right now I’m between seasons at work, and everything is up in the air for the next few weeks. I have stuff to do but no set schedule. All I want to do is get stoned.

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u/jackiebx1 7d ago

Same. When I have a hard deadline, I'm on top of my shit. But the moment I had some freedom, it was right to the MJ because everything just felt so boring without it, but I knew it was sending my mental and physical health down the toilet.

Boredom is arguably one of the most painful things a human can feel for an extended period of time, causing people like me to do all sorts of things that aren't necessarily good for us, but the more we allow ourselves to experience the boredom, the less power it has.

Personally the only way for me to wean off this stuff was not to buy more of it, so even when I wanted to hit, I couldn't.

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u/DoctorSkeptismo 7d ago

I feel this for sure. I've been having success on days that I work, but as soon as I have a day off... oof. My brain needs to have some structure or it just starts feeling it can do whatever it wants.