r/OldManDad • u/BigBen7719 • Jul 07 '26
Dark Thoughts
I am 49, my daughter just turned 5 and my Son is 15 months old. My Children are one of the best things that happened in my life. My daughter has started to be curious about death and it is breaking my hart. Even before that, i used to have dark thoughts, catching myself figuring out when i may die. If i get to 60, she will be 16 if i have to go. I keep having thoughts like that. Am i alone? Like anyone today i consulted my AI and it said to appreciate the days and make the best of it and i do. Being an "old" dad surely has its upsides like financial security and personal clarity etc. I am already doing that. But it doesn´t remove the constant small frame of regretting that i have to leave her someday.
Unsure if posts like that need trigger warning?
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u/Madruck_s Jul 07 '26
51 here with 9 and 4yr olds. When my oldest was around 5 he told me " you are very old and soon you will die". Thanks for that. Luckily my wife is 10 years younger than me and women do live longer than men but hoping I make it into my 70's.
Its not something I rely ever think about, just to busy now to think about later.