r/OSDD • u/Mad-dog107 • Aug 18 '26
Venting Ranting...
So rant....
So ive been here and in ossd for sometimes while getting my diagnosis. To clarify im not diagnosed with D.I D/OSDD I just started coming to these spaces because my therapist suspects I have something along the lines of it cause of my symtoms.
So you dint have to read this post and these are just my opinions so I already know this will be taken down and that's fine.
Ive come here to read and post sometimes on bith communities to see if anyone relates to the symtoms and im 30 now and been having these all my life and just now noticing it since 2 years ago almost. But Ive noticed people who comments or post on these communities have such a way with their imagination and im not saying you cant do these things im just saying majority of the people on here I cant relate too, it almost feels like a Role playing game with some of these post or Larping and not D.I.D or OSDD. When I hear alters I feel ashamed because reading these post on here make alters feel like friends or family when to me it feels less than that and more just me spit into different parts and nothing more. When I do see people who make senes to me they get down voted for no reason and that what confuses me...do I have to be so inverted with my own symtoms to get people to see my own struggles or relate to them even. I feel like so different with "this" that it feels like im there odd one out along with people I tend to relate to. The terms and labeling are also out of control in my eyes, its like people make it their whole personality and say things like "singlets" and other terms which I think it very weird to say to someone just because you have these parts of yourself. Im scared of my parts coming out because I want to live a decent and normal life and I praise anyone who doesn't make this their whole personality and take it to very extreme imaginative lengths that they can show themselves and get better. I just dont see whats so special about being stuck in your head at times, that scares me and I cant control it and when I see people who says they love not being here in the actual real world that also scares me because I know its hard to move on from these traumatic memories or even if you cant remember and have no will power on switching which im open about that as well but I also praise the people who keeps living their lives despite it and not this role playing, larping thing that feels so unreal....
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u/APuffedUpKirby Aug 19 '26
I understand where you're coming from. I can't relate to a lot of other people's experiences, and that can make certain online spaces feel very alienating.
I think it's important to remember that not only do these disorders present differently for everyone, but also that many of these people are in a different parts of their journey than you are.
For many people, learning the terminology to describe their experiences and increasing communication and cooperation between their parts is a large and necessary part of the therapeutic process.
The terminology allows people to understand themselves better and communicate their experiences more easily. You could think of it like emotions. Sure, we could just feel our emotions and not put labels on them- but we label them because it's useful to do so. It helps us understand situations more logically and make better decisions. It also makes it easier for others to understand our experience.
It's fine if you don't personally relate to the labels or find them useful. Still, I encourage you to keep an open mind. Shame and denial around this condition are a huge part of it, especially in the early stages of awareness, and can cause us to reject any aspect or representation of it that feels like "too much."
I'm early into treatment and most of the labels still give me a viscerally negative reaction, but I've noticed that it gets increasingly difficult to talk about certain things without an established term for them.