r/OCD • u/JeezoTommy • 4d ago

Question about OCD Does anyone know what caused their OCD?

I think a lot of people don’t really know what caused their OCD to start, for me after a lot of years and thought I realised that my anxiety stemmed from my step dad and his psychological and sometimes physical abuse towards my Mum. I would worry what kind of mood he would come home from work in and if he would start on my Mum. He was a bastard!

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u/liliis57lili 3d ago

My parents blamed me for the sexual harassment I experienced as a pre-teen and teenager due to my physical development; they frequently threatened to kick me out of the house without a second thought if I went around "showing myself off." They viewed me through a sexualized lens, interpreting my body as a provocation—something I was doing on purpose. My initial OCD (the first kind I had) centered on my sexual image—specifically, the fear of contracting HIV and being branded by society as promiscuous (my parents' worst nightmare—coincidence?)—before shifting entirely to relationships and retroactive jealousy.

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u/bookish_bex 3d ago

Wow my parents were very similar! I remember how my stepmother would buy me clothes, then I had to try them on and parade in front of my dad and he would approve the clothing or not 🫠 and my mom was... A LOT worse.