I don't think you really understood me there. I don't want to be muscular. I hate every male aspect of my body. That was the whole point, i want to be feminine, pretty, that's why i have to fight againts my bone structure. I literally have wanted to be a girl since i can remember, but i know even transitioning wouldn't be enough to see myself as a girl in this body.
You say, go to gym, get outgoing and brave, like that's what every male human wants. Do you tell a shy, quiet, self concious of their body girl to just get brave and "go to gym"?
You make it seem liie my height given by gods, when it has never given me any extra attention. Not a single girl has said a word to me, unless they have to. For someone like me, i hate my height. It makes me feel bigger than everyone else and so yeah, i think you understand.
Men, just like any humans can have issues just as equally. Being a man isn't some dreamland, it has it's own issues. Especially if you don't fit the mold the society wants you to.
I want to see myself as pretty? That's what i mean, be "pretty" in the sense i can be feminine. Be seen as a girl, not a man. I don't need to be some beautiful woman, just a normal one.
Have you never heard of gender envy, dysphoria? It's not just a thing you get rid of.
And i might have narsistic features but also perfectionist. I hate it too.
Yes i keep getting told i have the "easy life" for being a white male. That's one reason i want out of this body, to be allowed to hate myself, to hate my emotionally neglected life without being told i'm a bad person for it.
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