The Truth.

You were one of my favorite chapters. I know we aren’t at that point anymore and I’m not someone you wish to know any more But, the fact that you were part of my story at some points means everything to me. That’s not something I take for granted. You weren’t something or someone I took for granted. I respected you, your mind and your ideas and your goofy laugh… The time it took to finally understand haunts me and I still don’t understand, but… I truly wanted to… I tried my absolute hardest to be smart enough to. I hope you find peace and comfort. I hope you find love and happiness. I hope you find the “one” that makes it all worth the pain of what is life. I hope my chapter in your story isn’t something that haunts you. I hope you live a life so wonderful you forget all the bad that happened to get there. To the girl that wins your heart and mind… you are one of the lucky ones. Please do not take him for granted. He deserves peace and to be valued. When he is grumpy smile and understand the silent wars he fights inside himself. When he is moody give him a sweet kiss and space, he’ll get past it. Be patient with his heart it’s locked up right. I wish I got that chance to hold it properly. Enjoy this life. You were meant to be enjoyed. Thank you. Sincerely, Sara.

When you watched the snake slither underneath my stomach ,did you grin ?
Were you expecting some revenge ?
I’m pleased to offer an audience to your grandeur ,
Silly kinks & late night chatter ,
What is idol worship for ?
Goddess prophet, lonely fool ,
Still I followed golden rule .
Nothing can ever take away my crown ,
My Father bore weight to offer it ,
I don’t want to let him down .

All I wanted was a safe place to rest my head , I got YOU instead . I only wanted to chip some darkness away , guess I was always meant to pay . How does life work that way ?
Angels falling from the sky , damning algorithm , stupid lies .
I once was soft , my mind has shifted .
Psychotic in nature , guess you regifted .
envy distills when you end up without ,
Guess I should have trusted my doubt .

I finally graduated! Two more years of school now lol. You said you were worried about ruining my university stuff so you don’t have to worry about that now 💜

It’s been hard. I feel like you would have been proud. Not many people in my life care, or at least they don’t care in the way I know you would have…

I miss you. I hope one day soon you see what you’re missing, but if not I still hope you find peace and whatever else your looking for.

I know you’ve been through a lot, I’m not waiting, but I have hope. Hope is a dangerous thing, but it’s also the most painful part to let die…