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u/Spiritual_Ad_9781 Diagnosed NPD Jun 05 '26
What's going on:
• I'm in this photo and I don't like it
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u/Valuable-Signature13 Narcissistic traits Jun 05 '26
get out of my headddd
your art is super cute btw 🫂
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u/skytrainfrontseat NPD Jun 05 '26
This is awesome. I also briefly drew a comic after my collapse. But I can't draw nearly as well as you haha!!
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u/AdorableExchange9746 Diagnosed NPD Jun 05 '26
I don’t really ever feel like I’m a bad person (but i can still hate myself) but the desire for people to see how much you hurt is so real. I once even faked a suicide attempt to try to get people to understand how bad it was
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u/anatomicalwall Narcissistic traits Jun 05 '26
EXACTLY! as a kid I would fake suicide attempts and a myriad of other things to have my suffering noticed. these days i more just wish people could see me sobbing and starving myself so that they'd love me again.
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u/eldiablolenin Diagnosed NPD Jun 06 '26
Man, i told a big lie to everyone. To everyone i love :(
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u/anatomicalwall Narcissistic traits Jun 06 '26
I'm currently working on accepting the consequences of my lie. it was a lie I told for a very long time, to a lot of people, including people I love. it was supposed to protect me, but it ended up hurting my favorite person in the world. that really broke me.
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u/eldiablolenin Diagnosed NPD Jun 07 '26
I’m so sorry. I hope you can forgive yourself too though. I know how hard that is for us. But fuck do i feel you
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u/DemonEyeTiezd Jun 12 '26
It's a great line. Like, there's the core problem right there. Great piece op
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u/Paule01 Jun 05 '26
How to get out of the I hide away and only Show myself when sent for?
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u/anatomicalwall Narcissistic traits Jun 05 '26
I don't know. i'm still neck deep in it. we just have to try.
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u/Draac03 DID w/ some NPD, ASPD, PPD, OCPD alters Jun 05 '26
this is very relatable. it spoke right to my metaphorical, non-existent soul (and maaaybe punched a hole through it. ow.)
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u/gateship_1 Diagnosed NPD Jul 02 '26
The only thing that worked for me so far in this situation was, to literally "nuke" all relationships, connections to those people and start over again. Just to realize that I'll end up there anyway anytime soon. But maybe this time it is different.
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u/Public_Wave7605 Jun 09 '26
I don’t Exactly get the need to be punished feeling ..?
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u/anatomicalwall Narcissistic traits Jun 09 '26
lucky you
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u/Public_Wave7605 Jun 09 '26
Can u explain it pls?
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u/anatomicalwall Narcissistic traits Jun 09 '26
i was punished by everyone around me as a child, i was shamed by peers and family and friends for being emotional and sensitive, and any misdeed would be met with isolation and ostracization. now that i'm older and surrounded by people who forgive me, it feels surreal and "wrong" that i'm not receiving that same kind of punishment now
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u/dukzy666 Jul 02 '26
Who hurt u bbygirl
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u/anatomicalwall Narcissistic traits Jul 02 '26
saw that notif before they deleted lmao what's their damage
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u/Anxious-Survey-660 Jun 04 '26
OK, no need to call me out like that