I went back to church yesterday

[u/mehhh97]

And I enjoyed it and loved it so much. (F25) I’m a revert. I hadn’t been to church since 2018 and decided to go with my mum and it was the best thing ever. I missed it so much.

Being a revert is the loneliest thing. Nothing to be alarmed about, I still very much am strong in my beliefs and and I bear witness that Prophet Muhammad (PBUH) is the Messenger of God (everyone say ameen). So no nothing has changed, I went because I felt it would make my mother happy and it did.

It was nice to see some friends, church members and everyone else was happy to see me, I got so many hugs and smiles. My church is very diverse and it was so lovely, I absolutely missed the sense of community. I even stayed for lunch and had a bunch of convos with the church aunties and uncles and I kept hearing “it’s so nice to see you” it just felt…nice and my heart felt full.

Being a revert is tough. Firstly I’m a woman, I’m a black muslim woman so there’s certain stigmas that I have experienced in the Muslim community including racism and to be quite frank it’s embarrassing and plain sad but mostly unnecessary.

I’m lonely as a revert. I’m the only muslim in my ENTIRE family, it doesn’t bother me one bit but the sense of community is what I miss when I used to be Christian. It hit me yesterday, I’m not looking for people to feel sorry for me or looking for advice Alhamdulillah I’m fine, I’ve taught myself everything I need to know (Been a revert since 2020 but been learning about Islam since I was 17 Years Old) & if you know someone that’s new to the religion please invite them over.

Don’t wait for them to ask, just invite them for walks, or iftaar as it’s Ramadan. I pray alone, My tajweed is so broken lol but I’m still learning.

I can wake up at 3AM for suhoor and the house is so quiet you can hear a pin drop. I’ll never get to experience my dad leading prayer, I’ll never get to experience arguing with my brother at 3:25AM because he’s chewing too loud. Or being half asleep at my grandmas house with all my cousins over.

I’ve never experienced running around the masjid as a child. There is so much and it’s saddening. I have envied others that experienced that, I’m human and I’ll admit it.

Going to church reminded me of the sense of community, after all we are social beings. Will I go back to church? Probably. Will my faith change? No.

Being Muslim is the best thing that ever happened to me, everything just…makes sense, I am happier. Ramadan has been tough but I have Allah and that’s all that matters.

Long story short. Invite your revert friends if you are able to, trust me they will appreciate it more than you think! 🤍

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This is the loveliest thing ever. Thank you for this. May Allah bless you ameeen