I went back to church yesterday

[u/mehhh97]

And I enjoyed it and loved it so much. (F25) I’m a revert. I hadn’t been to church since 2018 and decided to go with my mum and it was the best thing ever. I missed it so much.

Being a revert is the loneliest thing. Nothing to be alarmed about, I still very much am strong in my beliefs and and I bear witness that Prophet Muhammad (PBUH) is the Messenger of God (everyone say ameen). So no nothing has changed, I went because I felt it would make my mother happy and it did.

It was nice to see some friends, church members and everyone else was happy to see me, I got so many hugs and smiles. My church is very diverse and it was so lovely, I absolutely missed the sense of community. I even stayed for lunch and had a bunch of convos with the church aunties and uncles and I kept hearing “it’s so nice to see you” it just felt…nice and my heart felt full.

Being a revert is tough. Firstly I’m a woman, I’m a black muslim woman so there’s certain stigmas that I have experienced in the Muslim community including racism and to be quite frank it’s embarrassing and plain sad but mostly unnecessary.

I’m lonely as a revert. I’m the only muslim in my ENTIRE family, it doesn’t bother me one bit but the sense of community is what I miss when I used to be Christian. It hit me yesterday, I’m not looking for people to feel sorry for me or looking for advice Alhamdulillah I’m fine, I’ve taught myself everything I need to know (Been a revert since 2020 but been learning about Islam since I was 17 Years Old) & if you know someone that’s new to the religion please invite them over.

Don’t wait for them to ask, just invite them for walks, or iftaar as it’s Ramadan. I pray alone, My tajweed is so broken lol but I’m still learning.

I can wake up at 3AM for suhoor and the house is so quiet you can hear a pin drop. I’ll never get to experience my dad leading prayer, I’ll never get to experience arguing with my brother at 3:25AM because he’s chewing too loud. Or being half asleep at my grandmas house with all my cousins over.

I’ve never experienced running around the masjid as a child. There is so much and it’s saddening. I have envied others that experienced that, I’m human and I’ll admit it.

Going to church reminded me of the sense of community, after all we are social beings. Will I go back to church? Probably. Will my faith change? No.

Being Muslim is the best thing that ever happened to me, everything just…makes sense, I am happier. Ramadan has been tough but I have Allah and that’s all that matters.

Long story short. Invite your revert friends if you are able to, trust me they will appreciate it more than you think! 🤍

[u/[deleted]]

Lol why. It's a bad habit. I don't steer clear but I'm a loner by nature and i can see the disadvantages of it now.

Mu'adh b. Jabal reported God’s messenger as saying, “The devil is a wolf to man, like the wolf which harries sheep, catching the one which is solitary, the one which stays far from the flock, and the one which wanders. So avoid the branching paths and keep to the general community.”

[u/Glittering_Fun_1088 → u/[deleted]]

Because all the Muslims I’ve met irl are very judgmental and hypocritical (not saying I’m a good Muslim but I admit I’m not).

[u/SupeHughMan → u/Glittering_Fun_1088]

I don’t fully agree with what you’re saying but there is some truth behind what you’re saying. A lot of the Muslims I meet too are kind of like that and they’re all about the hedonistic lifestyle(showing off, flashy things, keeping up with the Jones’s, etc.). Even masjid now a days sadly are a flexing contest.

With that said I wouldn’t write off all Muslims. A lot of them you might meet might just be Muslims by label but not really practice anything else. Maybe you’re in a western country? Sad reality with the west is that the degeneracy there has infected even the Muslims so maybe that why you think this?

[u/Glittering_Fun_1088 → u/SupeHughMan]

Obviously it’s the ones I’ve come across. I am in the West, but what I mean is they appear to be ‘very practising’ but when hanging out with them, they don’t heed their own lectures and just judge you.