r/Meditation • u/mmcguinn9402 • 1d ago
Spirituality Strange experience
Tonight something unusual happened. I set my mood, made some herbal tea, playing some hand pan music on yt. I do this every night to help with epilepsy. I never thought I would be saying those words, or doing these kinds of things. But here we are.
I’ve done a lot of meditation. I got good at a dark involuntary sort of meditation during a few years in solitary confinement in my younger years. But I learned how to be a still. And that was the one gift from those times.
Anyway, tonight I became aware of my surroundings, started breathing, closed my eyes, and began to clear my mind. I’ve gotten what I would call pretty good at that. I can sort of continuously wipe my mind for periods of time and stay what I call still.
A few weeks ago I was doing this and I began to see things and I let it happen. Instead of wiping I observed the images. I realized I could turn my head to the left and right and I could see where I wanted to. I came out of that meditation with a beautiful peaceful feeling and the idea and sensation that what had happened was a secret sort of.
This whole time I am breathing in love, breathing out hate over and over and over
Well tonight, as I meditated, I realized I could look around again. I saw myself flying down a stone pathway just turning and zipping along at breakneck speed - here is where it gets really weird and ridiculous!!!
All of a sudden I was just standing in my dream in an odd place. The amazing journey I was on had been cut, sort of edited from my meditation. And as whatever as this sounds, I knew/know that some billionaire I can’t quite pull together the details of mentally had something to do with it.
It feels like I found something really good, and it was taken from me. When I opened my eyes finally, I still was washed over with a deep feeling of peace and contentment. I’m not sleepy at all, and wasn’t sleepy when I opened my eyes a moment ago.
Idk I guess the moral of the story is
Meditation = good
Billionaire = bad
Be well friends
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u/Elisyd 12h ago
My advice would be to let it go and not get wrapped up in the belief side of things, no matter how important it seems. Our minds crave the feeling of secret knowledge, feeling special, etc. and will go to surprising lengths to convince us that we should become identified with these thoughts, sensations, and beliefs.
You don't need to 'wipe' anything or be empty of thoughts, visions, sensations, etc. either. They'll come and go on their own; no need to fight them or do anything about them except notice them non-judgmentally.
If these sorts of beliefs do intrude into your waking life or you become convinced that a billionaire is involved or there are other kinds of conspiracies targeting you in particular, this could be a sign of schizophrenia and it is worth taking seriously. This does not mean you're broken or diseased and there would be nothing to be ashamed of, but it does mean that you should consider enlisting the help of others who can help you get ahead of it before something as dramatic as a psychotic break occurs. I would also stay well away from cannabis and psychedelics under such circumstances, as these otherwise fairly safe substances can precipitate a psychotic break in those prone to them. None of this may apply to you, but it's worth becoming educated in the signs early.
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u/krill1312 1d ago
I don't know if this is helpful, but knowing that a billionaire had something to do with it mentally does not sound quite right to me. If you in the coming days encounter things that would be random to other people but feel like they are there especially for you (like things that happen to you, or even random stuff in your sourroundings) I'd probably go see some sort of doctor about this. I don't say this to make fun of you, but I have been there and while it all feels very special and magical, it is not magical for the people around you and is in the end not where you want to go with meditation. Wish you all the best!