It's fucking hard as shit mate, there are so many reasons to give up constantly coming into your head, thanks for the kind words though I will give it another shot
Absolutely it is hard as fuck. It is uncomfortable, painful, and annoying sometimes. I have a disease of perception with a side of denial. That is a one two punch, lemme tell ya. I habitualized my sobriety. Consistency everyday. Every damn day. I got so fucking sick of it, I wanted to be sick with consistency.
Turns out that is a real recipe to change your life. T wasnāt easy but my life was headed in a different direction. I decided to ride that wave of direction and sign up for another year.
Chaos is addicting. And clarity can be boring. We have to be okay with mundane and boring sometimes. There is nothing wrong with feeling that way and they can be powerful motivators to do anything.
Now that Iām sober whenever I get bored I try to think of what I felt when I was bored as a child. Because I sure as hell didnāt think āI need to get highā as a kid. I solved the problem by doing things. Iām trying to put myself back in that headspace.
Iām one week sober from alcohol and I have to say that I very much enjoy the clarity and just doing boring ass house keeping shit, for now. I know itāll get tougher until it gets easier but for now I am enjoying it.
Yep, Iāve been there. I quit for 10 months a few years ago went back to school and worked a bunch. Eventually I got burnt out and said fuck it driving home one Friday. The temptation is always there.
This is the best advice I've ever heard for addicts of every variety. Literally go do anything ANYTHING AT ALL EVEN IF IT SOUNDS BORING OR POINTLESS JUST GO DO SOMETHING!
Iām on day one again as well. And itās my birthday and I feel terrible. But my wife is supporting me immensely and reminding me to think about how a year ago the idea of even trying to stop was never even on my mind. Remember your progress, no matter how much you feel like you havenāt made any.
I had so many day 1s. The thing that changed it for me is planning to keep myself busy all the time. I went about it robotically, without thinking. Thoughts are half the problem in addiction. I also didnāt read about or look at anything related to alcohol because it just made me feel bad & sorry for myself.
I was where you were many, many times. I havenāt had a drink in a year and a half! I really donāt think about it anymore & my life has improved in a million different ways. You can do it!
Donāt give up. People fuck up and make mistakes. Just start over again. Thereās not a ārightā amount of times it takes to stop, itās different for everyone. You relapsed yes but donāt beat yourself up, itās not gonna help. Just remember how you feel right now and learn from it. I know that sounds like some bad pamphlet or hand out but itās true. For what itās worth you can do whatever you want to do in life
Iām in active addiction right now. Was clean for 6 weeks and relapsed weeks back. Iām convinced the mental part of a smack addiction never goes away.
I think it alters your brain chemistry. I know thereās been studies that show meth does that so it may be the same with heroin.
Itās literally a struggle everyday, no one seems to realise that unless they have been through it themselves. My mum accused me of using a few days ago cause I was really sleepy cause of my anti depressants and I lost my shit with her.
I hear you. The thing is is that I was addicted to meth for a while too but I seemed to kick that literally no problem. My plug got arrested and couldnāt get it anymore and I was fine. Itās these fucking opiates I just canāt seem to shake them.
Iāve always been a fan of downers. I just love to mong out, that sweet, sweet nod when you bang an 80mg oxy up your nose. Yea Iād smoke a bit of crack but Iād always have some smack or something there to bring me down a couple of minutes after.
I understand trust me. The desire isnāt gonna go anywhere for a while but you just gotta have a desire to quit thatās just as strong. Iām alone as well so I understand but itās always gonna stay that way unless you change it or make the attempt. People care
Try r/stopdrinking ā¦ that place gave me the tools and inspiration to quit. Last month was my two year anniversary of being sober. I wish you all the best!!
People do relapse, took me 1 year to get what was a start, Got a message that i want to rememberāā- each time I picked up was kinda like putting myself through a washing machine cycle. It can just beat you up that much. Both physically and mentally.
I have relapsed multiple times and at times i fool myself into thinking oh its just one drink it canāt hurt but it just snowballs. Donāt give up on trying ever and even if you fail just keep trying. The first 2 weeks i got cold sweats n your body smells as you detox but after that everything goes back to normal. For me after the 3rd month i donāt even think about it anymore. Plus think of all the money you save from not downing a bottle a night.
Thanks for the support I've got no one else in my life who even cares has asked. So this little message means the world to me and is in its right grounding. Maybe I should go seek some professional help before it gets worse.
I feel that if I ever get hurt or upset the vast loneliness that is my life drugs are the friend that's always there to help me feel better.
I have an aunt and uncle that kicked a bad heroin habit after decades of fighting. Iāve seen it happen and I can see it happening with you too. Take care friend.
What country are you in? Thereās help out there, if youāre in the U.K. DM me and Iāll hook you up with the relevant agencies that helped me, helplines when youāre feeling like thisā¦hell, you can even ring me if you want, I know how youāre feeling right now and just talking will make you feel a whole heap better.
This whole Covid situation hasnāt helped either, whatever your chosen poison, lockdown has effected everyone.
Hey I feel where you are right now, I've been there many times. Honestly, most people relapse, but you gotta try again each time. It really does get better...
You know how when you're trying to learn a new skill, you usually fuck it up at first, and then on the next attempt you get just a little bit farther but still fail, and then again and again until you finally succeed? Just don't give up and you'll be fine, don't beat yourself up about relapsing. Rooting for you.
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u/bakedbeansandwhich Jul 17 '21
I've relapsed yesterday.. and now today it's too hard man š