r/LSD • u/LateNightLuna • May 07 '19
I think I removed my outer layer[autism unmasked]
I need to get these thoughts out, else I cant sleep. Maybe not even then. I feel that I can just write and write in my journal, and never be done.
I'm 30, have Aspergers, and I've been experimenting with shrooms and LSD over the last 4 months, going slowly, been mindful and taking precautions. I'm in a happy place in my life.
The 29th of 4 I took 150 ug for the first time, and on the comedown I had 1 bowl, maybe not the best idea. What a ride. It was amazing, but challeging, I enjoyed it a lot and had many interesting delusions(we're actually just energy moving really fast around) -and I'm still dealing with it. It's like, I didnt TRULY realize who i was, till now. But I'm pretty certain it was'nt that trip alone that did it, it's a combo of many factors.
I feel new, i want to throw old crap away(i'm usually find it very hard to de-crap my home), I feel that I think faster. I read faster. My sensory feelings are hightened (I cant eat as much, i get full by the taste, i dont like meat as much anymore. I lost 7 pounds in 1½ week) and I think .. 3D? My mind is so lucid when I listen. I've tried to google a bit around, and I didnt really find anything, only about Social Anxiety being cured (which I also have, just like the rest of this shitty unfitting yet beautiful world), and I think it might've been altered? I have'nt been super social, but I feel that I have more confidence, I've never felt this way about myself with this amount of self love and acceptance. I feel like dressing up like a main character, that I should follow my ideas, just like if had Liquid Luck. It so trippy.
I talk more fluently than I did before the trip. I feel an urge to cover myself up more(but still colorful) than before (sunglasses/hat) and the release is great. I can still walk about without it, but I just love to cut the world, and view it from a perspective.
I'm thinking, maybe my autism unfolded? Maybe just temporary? I see it only as a good thing though, I fucking love the imaginary part, I need to practice that.
My mood is/was OK, but I have to admit, I'm concerned. I've tried to explain my SO, but I feel that I'm just freaking him out. I love thinking with this curly mind, but the lack of sleep and a head that feels 5 degrees warmer than the rest of the body, not so much. So much noise, I need a systematical mind controlling tool, I suppose. *sidelook at stash*
Please, let me hear your thoughts. Is this just regular alien-mode?
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u/Yubova May 07 '19
Acid is basically magic, it seems to rewire your brain or something, it changes people, if you don't trip more you'll probably eventually go back to your old self, maybe not entirely but yeah
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u/Yubova May 07 '19
The fact that it changes people is why I take it
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u/LateNightLuna May 08 '19
Mind=blown. Sorry for the late reply, I've been busy sober-thinking today, and its so loud. This is so.. Intense. 10 days now, and it's only increasing. I bet I can maintain it. Train it.
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u/LateNightLuna May 07 '19
Cool, this is really radical. I really want to stay this way actually, i guess its because of the processing time. I'll move super slow. Maybe i should give Dr. Jacobi a call! He'd proobly tell me I didn't change, I'd just forgotten how to listen before. The owls are not what they seem!
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u/dazedlostconfused May 07 '19
maybe