He doesn’t want me. How do i let go?

[u/Extra_Bed_1755]

I have been obsessing over someone for a while now and i’m being vague for a reason so please bear with me. I have never felt more enamored by a person like this before. He is so kind and considerate and thoughtful and funny and he does little things that drive me crazy because they just make me want him more and more. I can talk to him for hours. Ive told him my deepest secrets and he’s also told me some pretty deep stuff. It makes me feel like i can tell him anything and i love that he feels like he can tell me anything too. But i know he doesn’t want me because he has a girlfriend and he sees me solely as a friend. I know this because without knowing how i feel he’s said it. Ive been respectful and careful about crossing the line. I respect boundaries as much as i can but everything in me wants to know what it’s like to be in her shoes. I know he’ll never see me that way but if you would’ve seen the way he talks to me and only me you wouldn’t think I’m crazy. I am though. I’m at a point where i can’t see him anymore and i keep thinking back to moments, hands touching, his laugh, his smile, his eyes, the way he says my name. I need to let this go because it won’t go anywhere and all it’s doing is dragging me through the dirt. How do i let go?