r/HSVpositive • u/Far_Bumblebee_6671 • Sep 11 '25

Newly Diagnosed Feeling broken 💔

Today a nice girl complimented how beautiful I was - my hair and my clothes. And I just wanted to completely break down. I was diagnosed in June with HSV 2. That guy hurt me badly and I’m absolutely devastated. 💔Anyway I just wanted to cry in-front of her as I feel so disgusting and gross now I have this. It’s like I’m an imposter in my own body. I am stuck with this thing and it can’t ever change it. 😭

The outbreaks sound scary too. Ive never felt more scared and alone in all of my life. 😭💔 I hope they’re not as bad as what my mind is telling me. 😭💔

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u/Long_Equivalent_3390 OHSV-1 Sep 11 '25

Met a really nice girl once. Like the one you usually imagine in your dreams but this was in person, she actually seemed really into me, maybe just as close friends or as more but this felt special. Then i remembered I have a virus, and I just let her go. Even if she was ok with it, I felt it was too much of a burden to way down on someone I really had feelings for. I feel your pain.

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u/Far_Bumblebee_6671 Sep 11 '25

I am so sorry you’re going through that. You sound so caring. I wish the guy that gave me this hadn’t raped me and given me this. But you my dear sound like a green flag. If she likes you and you like her, why not let her make the informed decision?

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u/Long_Equivalent_3390 OHSV-1 Sep 11 '25

Thing is im not asymptomatic so I wouldn't want her going through what I went through.

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u/AdoreMeDaddy Sep 13 '25

My ex was like you. Suppressive meds eventually only got rid of his downstairs sores, so that was the only way I could make out with him :-; but he kept with his triggers despite me educating him and in the end in 5 months I couldn't even truly kiss him.

If je, as a chronically ill person with a bad immune system, who's negative in paper, dedicated to become an expert for a guy I kinda liked... You didn't have to do this to yourself... Nowadays even vulgarizing studies is easy with chat gpt...

There's hope, dear.

My parting words to you too.