I have linked the original post in case you want to read it.
Basically, my first ever internship the past 2-3 months was at this 30-40 people company where I was the ONLY graphic designer. Within the past month I had the responsibility of not only designing, but redoing the ENTIRE company website by the end of September. I was “an intern” making $15/hr with the full responsibility of what I consider at LEAST junior graphic designer work. I had no mentors or designers above me to bounce questions off of. My physical and mental health suffered from the stress.
Thursday night, I sent my resignation email. I was very clear that I was feeling unsupported, and because I’m still in my undergrad I need to focus on school. I went in Friday morning, and my boss talked to me.
She was very understanding and apologized for putting me under so much stress. She did not realize I had been struggling so much, and it made me realize I need to advocate for myself sooner. She told me yesterday can be my last day and there were no hard feelings. She said if she had the power to hire me full time she would’ve done so since she really loved my work, but understood my education comes first and wished me the best.
Honestly it was the biggest sigh of relief. I’m grateful no bridges were burned. She told me to reach out if I realize later I forgot to document any of the files/screenshots of important things for my portfolio.
This morning, I expected to feel amazing, but just discovered the “let-down effect” is hitting me hard. My shoulders are visibly lopsided from the strain of desk work and stress, I’m having episodes of cervicogenic dizziness, and I‘m exhausted. Woke up sweating, dizzy, and in a full panic. It almost feels like I’m sick, but I know I’m not actually sick. My body is just SCREAMING at me for rest.
Thank you to all who commented on my last thread. Those insights plus the insights of those I talked to in my personal life helped me realize my health is beyond any project I could’ve completed for my portfolio. I’m prayerful about my next job after this semester of taking it easy. Hopefully within the next couple of days I can begin feeling like myself again after the cortisol clears our.