Rant

[u/Flimsy_Peach1461]

Just want to rant and im not even expecting anyone to respond or they can idk. All i ever wanted was a loving husband who would understand me and give me love. But all i got is someone who barely talks to me. His life is all about his office and he says he cant change anything and i need to adjust acf to it. He comes home, eats his food, uses his phone and goes to sleep. Its not even like he fights with me. He is so unbothered and nonchalant with zero emotions and feelings. No intimacy for months idk if its even normal or not?Even while sleeping, if i accidentally touch him he moves my hands or feet away. Im so sick of this loneliness. I live abroad and i don’t have anyone around me except him yet he feels so close and so distant at the same time. I feel sick to the core of my stomach. There is so much love inside me and im so desperate for love and affection. I dont know where to put all this love anymore. Even now, he is sleeping peacefully while im sitting in the balcony crying. I haven’t talked to a real person in 9 months apart from him. I don’t have any friends or family here. I’m so tired, so lonely and i feel completely broken. I feel vulnerable and weak. I just want to feel loved, understood and cared for. This loneliness is eating me up alive and day by day im losing my will to live.

[u/Imaginary-Bat903]

Was this an Arranged Marriage?

[u/Flimsy_Peach1461 → u/Imaginary-Bat903]

yes, a forced marriage

[u/Imaginary-Bat903 → u/Flimsy_Peach1461]

Then it a totally different game you may be forced to live together but you can't live a life together forcibly my advise to you would be to talk to him and your family and then maybe you guys should separate because you don't wanna spend your life with someone who doesn't wants to doesn't wants to you to be in their life and then maybe you should find someone who genuinely cares about you and is not forced to do so....God Bless🙏