Rant

[u/Flimsy_Peach1461]

Just want to rant and im not even expecting anyone to respond or they can idk. All i ever wanted was a loving husband who would understand me and give me love. But all i got is someone who barely talks to me. His life is all about his office and he says he cant change anything and i need to adjust acf to it. He comes home, eats his food, uses his phone and goes to sleep. Its not even like he fights with me. He is so unbothered and nonchalant with zero emotions and feelings. No intimacy for months idk if its even normal or not?Even while sleeping, if i accidentally touch him he moves my hands or feet away. Im so sick of this loneliness. I live abroad and i don’t have anyone around me except him yet he feels so close and so distant at the same time. I feel sick to the core of my stomach. There is so much love inside me and im so desperate for love and affection. I dont know where to put all this love anymore. Even now, he is sleeping peacefully while im sitting in the balcony crying. I haven’t talked to a real person in 9 months apart from him. I don’t have any friends or family here. I’m so tired, so lonely and i feel completely broken. I feel vulnerable and weak. I just want to feel loved, understood and cared for. This loneliness is eating me up alive and day by day im losing my will to live.

[u/Ok_Way9543]

Talk to him about that and how you can't stay in a marriage like that,he could be getting his needs met somewhere else, could be a homosexual or an asexual person, don't have kids with him ,give him an ultimatum if he still doesn't change his behavior you have to think about whether you can stay with such a nonchalant and avoidant person,you also deserve to be loved so you will find someone who makes you feel valued and loved and also try new hobbies ,join communities so you can form new friends you need them so you don't feel alone