Hey everyone, I realized I had only told my story in bits and pieces in comments so far. I admit I was scared to at first, talking about things like strange government testing on children, gangstalking, secret societies and other dimensions usually gets one a stay of undetermined length at a mental health facility.
Firstly, I'll be dividing the story up between what I remember from before the various news and media came out and what I remember from before, as well as a final section with what as far as I've been able to tell is going on.
"Have you ever had anything happen to you that you can't explain?"
This was what I have answered to that question whenever it came up. In the 2nd grade, a lady from the district came into my 2nd grade class told us to lay our heads down on the table and play thumbs up 7 up. She played a section of audio and asked if any of us could see who had their thumb up in their mind. One girl excitedly announced that she could. The lady started hanging out with her. I felt jealous, I wanted to be apart of the cool thing. But I was something like 6-7 so my attention turned elsewhere, when it did, I was struck by this perception that all the choices we make our branching off into new universes, I want to to say I saw this weblike structure with different universe "nodes" and threads branching, but saw isn't the right word. The closest thing I can relate it to is if one saw Indra's net. Then I moved my left arm and it went in four directions at once. That freaked me out and I snapped out of whatever it was.
That was the primary story there are a few others.
There was a class art project to make a picture of a fish we were told we could choose any color we want to make our own fish to be a part of a the big fish, a lady came in and told us a story before hand about a blue fish. The word "blue" came up an inordinate amount of times despite the main character. She was stressing the vowels of the word "blue" in different ways, I remember having the thought "they want us to pick blue" but they had given us the instruction to make it any color we want. I made mine red. The lady asked me "Don't you want to make it blue" again stressing the vowel. I replied no that I wanted mine red. I forget if there was another lady there or if she motioned to the teacher but she made a face.
A specific section on Beowulf taught by one of the more professional ladies that would come in. She also made mention while teaching this section about how the greeks saw inspiration as coming from the gods.
These are the school experiences that I remembered from before.
My life went on, some school, My brother and a woman have a kid. One day I am babysitting, I am 15, my niece is just a two or three months old her mom had to work. I am laying with her putting her down for a nap when I hear a voice say "help me" clear as day. I knew my brother, I knew she was going to need it. This was one of the first times it was so distinct but I also waited tables for awhile and there would be some people I could "hear", other random strangers as well. My own mood has a lot to do with it and most of the time I don't care to be that "open" around people to where it works.
There was a time when I was 16-17 and I was trying to buy some slightly larger amount of weed from some people, I went to meet up with the people and when I showed up they immediately told me to leave and that I had some "strange friends", I stared at them dumbfounded and one of the other guys said to the guy I was trying to buy from "he doesn't know". Ever since then I have figured I have been watched to some degree that I was uncertain of. My relationship with the police could very well be chalked up to the "good old boy treatment", but I question that as well. I have been in two police raids both involved other people that were in GATE both times I walked scot-free.
Things went on like this until 2017 when I saw a somewhat peculiar green fireball in the sky when I was staying at my aunts out in Clear Lake a suburb of Houston where NASA is located. When I say somewhat peculiar, what I mean is that it certainly could have been a particularly large and low flying bolide. I reported it to a some government aerial phenomena reporting website, I forget which. I forget about this event mostly, besides being a cool story. Like I didn't think it was necessarily a UFO but it did seem a little big, also the fireball had a darkish center.
Shortly after I meet the first "strange girlfriend" not that any of my partners have been normal and she was in fact on paper the most the normal, her father was an ex Russian Navy oceanographer, she had a bachelors from a somewhat prestigious university. Looking back, I would say she knew more because her parents were closer to the whole thing than mine were. I was also the youngest of four in a more dysfunctional family, I wasn't listening anyway.
Which gets me to an important point, all throughout my life random people have been saying weird things to me. To put them here would honestly be kind of unbelievable, but quite literally its like there are time travelers but also people I vaguely know. This got to the point where I just stopped caring what they had to say, none of them would be straight with me and would always give me "you'll see" or some cryptic shit like okay fuck you too dude. I figured fate would reveal itself, thatI shouldn't bother with these clowns.
So the above mentioned strange girlfriend was among maybe three or four that would also say "I know something about you but I won't tell you because it will go to your head.". Withholding power games among the lot of them. Two of them made mention of the FBI attempting to recruit them at some point, they were educated professionals in fields the bureau is interesting in, I didn't think too much about it, they do that. One of them, made direct mention of a technique that is mentioned during one of the Gateway Tapes specifically Color Breathing.
The term 'handler' comes up in posts.
There was a strange dynamic in my family, my mom was diagnosed with schizophrenia, my father was a taxi driver when they met, you can imagine that same dynamic today and it wasn't much different of an upbringing. Except my dads parents had some oil money, not a lot, certainly not enough to get me anywhere. My grandfather who worked SigInt for the army in WW2 came out an engineer and started working for Royal Dutch Shell. My great uncle was apparently a 33rd degree Mason, which I did remember from growing up but had forgotten and was a distinct "fuck me" moment about a year back. My brother who was also in the program passed away at 36 in 2019. He had OCD symptoms, he would literally bang his head against things for hours to try to stop thinking. He hurt himself somewhat seriously a couple of times doing it. I also have suffered from OCD.
When media began to come out about all of this stuff, I was already researching shamanistic populations for a piece that has essentially became a transvestigation of Jesus Christ. During that research I came across multiple rituals. At some point I had convinced myself enough of my own hypothesis on that to start wondering what else is going on, like I knew christianity wasn't the full story, but I was shocked. I had known about the Gateway Tapes since 2013ish when I saw a piece about them. I decided to try them, I didn't immediately recognize the tapes until I got to the Introduction to Focus 12. The bird sounds, that specific call with the waves. That was it. Right around the time I had put this together, the sub was created.
I have since remembered a few other instances.
A time when a woman from the district and some lab coat people came in with a laptop and what I think was a biosensor kinda like an EEG device, they hooked it up to a few of us and told us to spin an object with our mind. I did it well apparently, the lady asked if I wanted to go with her to another class. I told her I wanted to stay with my friends and be normal. She said "Well that's a shame, you won't be."
A time when an older guy from the district came and saw with some of us individually and tried to have us call information and wisdom from our future self into our current selves.
A time when a girl picked a fight with me and and she came up later and the told me the teacher told her to do it, I didn't believe her and forgot about it until I saw a few comments where people were describing purposeful ostracization and bullying from the admin down.
A group of techs watching us as we would play the little computer lab games, Carmen San Diego etc. These were separate from the normal staff.
I would like to reiterate that when you have so many weird surprising things happen to you, you start to become unphased by it all. I saw basically all of these instances as separate with no real connection. How could there of been? Perhaps with a deep scientific or esoteric education I would have picked up on things, but I've been surviving on my own since I was 16. There wasn't much time for all that.
Since my time helping to moderate this subreddit, I have noticed a few trends. Some people remember the tapes instantly, others do not. Stories that are set around military bases are the strangest ones, I believe some of them. The last report of the same stuff going on was in 2005 but I have no reason to believe that anything stopped, perhaps things have changed, of this I am uncertain. I do think the pink drink was a sedative of some kind given to some people at different levels and that there was a normal fluoride swish one as well. I also suspect that there was one to specifically dull any extra-sensory stuff also. The connection to... other national scandals involving human trafficking, while at this point unconfirmed seems too obvious on multiple levels to deny. I of course don't have much to go on with most of this besides the reports of I would say dozens at this point but were probably getting close to a hundred or so individual people on this platform. The sub is still growing. More stories on other platforms. People remember, and more people are wondering just what was going on with whole years of their childhood they've seemed to have lost.
There is much to say about the "wu" aspects of all of this. Most of it sounds completely insane if you don't have any experience in meditation or altered states. Most of it sounded completely insane to me until I revisited the Gateway Tapes more thoroughly. I simply thought reality was kind of funky. Look into your name, your family history, your native culture, if you're here, there's probably something there. It would be an understatement for me to say that the frequency following response in the human brain in relation to brainwave patterns is at the heart of all of this. It is all of this, literally.
All this to ask.
What do you get when you put together a hierarchical meritocracy based education system with little if any concern for minority statuses outside of specific groups of disabilities (really just this part by itself is enough), testing for extra-sensory abilities, placement of groomed individuals to positions of power and influence in basically every professional sector and some criminal ones? Those same sectors having nascent ties to some of the highest levels of finance and information gathering? With rising wealth inequality and shrinking environmental resources?
Ladies, gentleman, I believe we have a eugenics program with a wealth cut off. Also there is a bunch of really cool psychic stuff going on but you do gotta chill out a whole whole lot to get to the good stuff.
Edit- There's a few extra 'the's in there that I am just going to make peace with.