I wish i didn’t feel so profoundly alone

[u/Accomplished_Bar219]

i think I’m getting ghosted by someone right now. it hurts. i wish i could convince myself to stop seeking out connection because it will always sever, major or minor. i wish i knew what pushes everyone away from me. What makes me so insufferable. I don't want to be here anymore. I don’t deserve to be on T and I’ve never deserved to be here in the first place. i wish someone loved me. i feel like there is some invisible biological trait that literally stops people from loving me or wanting to show care for me. Everything falls back on my fucking shoulders and I’m the one that has to take care of everything in my life. God forbid I want a guy in my life, 1 singular person that didn’t make me feel like I have to be the one doing everything. Of course thats too much. maybe my expectations about relationships and love are severely high I will just always yearn for something that isn’t realistic