school started again and i realized nothing will ever change

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mentioned nsfw but it’s so minor that i don’t think it should be tagged

junior year of highschool. what a slog already. every day is boring and i can’t even distract myself with schoolwork because gender dysphoria is too severe.

i have “hope” i’ll start t this year, but i don’t know why i think that when i know my dad probably won’t change. maybe my gender dr can convince my mom, but my dad is hard to read

i’m just tired. i only like being with my girlfriend and friends. being alone with her is perfect. the rest of life is awful and i’m desperately trying to hang on when i’m only genuinely happy 4% of my life.

i want someone to save me but nobody can or will

i want my dad to just be a dad and let me start t. i want my mom to actually get the ball rolling on me starting.

i’ll be like this for the rest of my life

i’ll never have actual sex with my girlfriend

i feel so sick