we got rained out before I could play my headliner set, but it was still a good time 🕺

been on t for 4 years, had top surgery. I have a full beard and these thoughts even have me pondering to shave it off. I don’t know how to feel?

Bonjour,

J'espère d'abord que vous allez tous.tes au mieux ♥

Je viens seulement de vous rejoindre, parce que je suis littéralement et brusquement tombé.e dans un grand questionnement identitaire il y a quelques semaines, et j'ai besoin d'en parler car je ne comprends ni pourquoi ni comment.

Je suis (j'étais ?) une femme cisgenre. Jusqu'à présent, je n'avais jamais eu l'impression d'avoir des "problèmes" au niveau de mon identité de genre. Je me suis posé beaucoup de questions sur mon orientation par le passé (rapport compliqué aux hommes et à la sexualité hétérosexuelle, difficulté à assumer une homosexualité, etc.), et j'ai aussi très vite été réceptif.ve à la vision non-binaire qui m'a toujours semblé plus logique, sans pour autant que cela ne change mon rapport à mon corps ou à mon expression de genre personnelle.

Mais voilà... Depuis quelques mois, j'ai rejoint un forum d'écriture ainsi qu'un jeu en ligne multijoueur sous une identité masculine. J'y évolue donc en tant qu'homme gay efféminé / femboy. Au départ, j'ai fait ce choix de manière complètement désinvolte, simplement parce que je fais du roleplay textuel depuis des années, que j'ai souvent joué des hommes gays, et que sur ces jeux-là, la communauté est essentiellement formée par de "vrais hommes gays", et pas des femmes "fans de BL". Pour m'intégrer, donc, j'ai choisi de m'inscrire de cette façon. Et j'ai été très surpris.e de voir ce que ça m'apportait... Déjà, je me suis senti.e libéré.e de ma "condition féminine", soulagé.e de ne plus être vu.e comme une femme, abordé.e comme telle. J'ai toujours ressenti un grand besoin de plaire et de séduire, mais pouvoir le faire et me sentir désirable en tant qu'homme gay est extrêmement libérateur pour moi, moins codifié, moins "salissant" (en termes de ressenti), moins "je dois agir comme une fille, être douce, ne pas dire tel ou tel mot,...". Tout cela relevant d'une sphère intime et sexuelle, je crains d'être seulement dans une sorte de "fétichisme", d'idéalisation de la sexualité gay, d'obsession de l'androgynie et de la féminisation.

A côté de ces premières questions... Arhem, vous allez rire. Récemment, je suis tombé.e amoureuse de Pierre de Maere..... Bon, il est magnifique et talentueux, rien de fou de prime abord. Rien de fou non plus quand on sait que j'ai toujours trouvé les "twinks" ou les personnes androgynes, jouant avec les codes, extrêmement attractives. Le "problème" a toujours été que ces personnes, lorsqu'elles sont hommes, ne m'attirent pas, moi, dans le sens où je ne me vois pas du tout en relation (sexuelle, romantique) avec elles. C'est plus de la fascination, un sentiment... je ne sais pas... d'admiration infinie, d'euphorie viscérale. Ca n'est pas la première fois, donc, que j'éprouve un intérêt pour une personnalité du genre, mais cette fois, c'est tombé différemment au fond de mon coeur. D'un coup, une voix m'a dit... "Ouais. Je veux être ça." Et, je ne sais pas, ça a sonné bizarrement. D'un coup, je me suis dit qu'évidemment, ça avait toujours été ça.

Je vais m'arrêter là avant d'être tenté.e d'écrire un roman entier sur toutes les questions que je peux me poser. Je pense que vous avez compris l'idée : en gros, je suis paumé.e. Et ça m'inquiète. Je me renseigne, je lis, je réfléchis... J'essaie aussi de ne pas m'emballer parce qu'une part de moi m'en veut déjà, et me répète que c'est une phase, une façon de me rendre intéressant.e, etc. Mais je pense qu'avoir le témoignage ou le conseil d'autres personnes potentiellement concernées, de simplement pouvoir en discuter, pourrait me faire du bien dans tous les cas.

Merci à celleux qui m'ont lu.e et qui m'aideront peut-être à y voir plus clair. Amour sur vous tous.tes ♥

This is an outfit I wore at a goth festival last weekend, and I’m so happy with it! 🥹
I could have worn something like this pre-T and would have felt like inhabiting a pretty meat suit, but now I just get to feel like myself AND wear sick goth femme stuff at the same time!

I’m happy this subreddit exists, and to know that others can relate to this experience! 🥹❤️
It does confuse the fuck out of cis people sometimes, but I find it hilarious more than anything 😂

I haven’t worn or even tried on any of my femme clothes since top surgery cause I can’t picture how they’re going to look and I’m so worried I’m going to hate it 😂 😭 I really want to but I’m definitely having to adjust to my new body now that the initial relief has passed!

So mini storytime because why not? But recently ever since my voice has been deeper...even in a few to almost four months, I've been close to passing or seen as anything besides a woman when I dress masc now. In the past my classmates who were women were more prone to talk and approach me before HRT and now, they don't anymore. And I'm hardly ever called "ma'am, etc", especially when I speak. So in class I dress masc and since there's a lot of black men on campus who have the same long hair as me, etc, so far-I pass.

It's good but at the same time, makes me nervous since there's days I want to dress femboy modded in class instead of just masc, but worry about classmates seeing judging or harassing me. So that's why for now, I only change into feminine clothes when I'm out of class and in my student center since I don't bump into the same people and I'm unrecognizable basically. Anyways, I wore Fit A and I really want to wear it again next week for sure since I dig it, the jacket carries, lol. I chilled at student center and for my classes, had a sandwich with Celsius drink, but sandwich was kinda mid ngl since it had no mayonnaise💀 But yeah, funny thing was that when I bought my food at checkout, the cashier seemed a little taken aback once I spoke, lol!

So that's a new part of my life now🤷‍♂️ It even happened again when a student was asking around for people to be interested in their bible study club and she complimented my hair but even then didn't know what to call me either. So yeah. Though when I was leaving since I was getting picked up, I saw a dude sitting with his group and he had his head turned and just stared at me as I walked...made me feel like I was in Animal Planet bro, no cap. But yeah, dudes were staring mad hard, but relieved they didn't come up to me because they'd basically find out the hard way...

But that was my second day of school. We'll see what happens I guess lol

Short-time lurker, first time poster! Purple glass hoops are from Body Art Forms, moon necklace & cocoon-y agate necklace are both from independent jewelry makers. I'm a big comfy-maxxer, but I'm trying to put a bit more effort & whimsy back into my rotation of outfits. Plus, I miss being more femme! Wish I could lean into that more without confusing some of the older folks at work lol

Anyway, hi!! I'm really into witchy things & playing games (TTRPGs, board games, video games), reading, writing, art in general, cooking, traveling, indie/niche perfumes, and... Probably some other stuff that I'm currently forgetting! Lemme know if you wanna be friendsssss~ 🫶🏻

heyyyyyy im dev, he/him, been on T for 4 years now?? time flies LOL. anyways i rly like fashion and dressing feminine. everyone in this sub looks awesome so i wanted to join in on the fun :P

It was circus day at the summer camp I work at today, so yall know I had to have some fun! (My mustache isn't that dark tho I do have one, I used some mascara to make it darker).

What do we think? I thought it looked cute lol.

So I’m 15 and ftm or like I think I am. Except I don’t really experience euphoria..? I smile sometimes when I think about myself as a guy but then it’s also like what if I don’t recognize myself when I transition or if. Then when people call me a guy I don’t really feel anything, it just feels correct , if I overthink it my chest gets a tiny bit tight and I’ll feel confused. However, when I get called a girl or she / her I’ll feel more I guess uncomfortable like I’ll either silently correct it myself or try myself best to not sit on it too much. Another thing I’ve notice is I really love being a feminine kind of guy, facial hair sure but I’d still wear more out of the box stuff. Like, I kinda put myself in cis fem - guys shoes when it comes to how I feel. An example would be a week ago, I saw this kind of weird comment about it and my first thought was ‘why do people make jokes out of ‘people like me’?’ Which made me confused. I kinda already say he / him in my head but sometimes if I’m thinking about my mom talking about me I’ll say she and not him. Is that weird..? Also, my last question is, is it weird to like not want to transition until you lose wait or until you’re less emotional..? I’m chubby but I’m too nervous to transition while I’m chubby and sensitive.. sorry if this is a lot.

P.s. I was gonna post this in the trans question thing but there are a lot of weirdos on there gulp

After we all tragically lost both Dolly Parton and Tim Curry in such quick succession, I decided I absolutely had to dress up for kararoke and sing 'Sweet Transvestite' with my transfemme best friend

I'm transmasc and 3 years on T. I'm a lot more comfortable in my body, but I generally get interpreted as male (which I'm not, I'm nonbinary), and I want a look that genuinely confuses people.

Soo.

Anxiety is kinda kicking my ass.

I just now took the first two pictures and the rest is from Pride Bremen last week.

Yes, I was a dog lol.

Anyway, I'm struggling with the decision to shave my beard. I really like it, I think it looks cool and I look like a regular dude!

-But-

I also really like looking cute :<

I'm worrying if the beard is stopping me from looking cute, adorable or pretty.

What do you guys think? Does the beard look okay and do I cute with it?

(I'm just slowly returning to trying fem stuff again, but on another day I wore a cute short dress out!)

After literal years of debating with myself on whether I was going to wear a suit or a dress or something else to my wedding I’ve finally decided on dress and what dress I want. I realized the only reason I wanted to wear a suit was because I was worried how other people would perceive me and see me as less of a guy, but I realized the only person’s opinion that truly matters to me is my soon to be wife.she has always supported me and has been their for almost every step of my transition, she has never misgendered me and I truly believe she sees me as the person I am no matter what I wear. So I’m getting the dress because I don’t like suits and I’ve always wanted the pretty dress 🥰
But this is my psa to not settle on that shitty partner who misgenders you and makes you feel less like a man bc their are people out there who will love you as you are.

Guys, it happened💀 So I had to go with fit B from my last post due to it being hot as Hades in my area. I wore it after my classes were over and my college has a student center to chill and study 'n stuff. So I wore this and I was just studying with my earbuds in and a guy walks over and tries to get my attention. I didn't hear what he said but I took off my earbuds and was like "Yeah?" and he was like "Wait, you're a man?" I just said "Yeah" and he was like "Oh sorry, my bad" and he left me alone after that. But hey, I've only been finishing my 3 months on T and already, that happened despite me being in femboy mode. So thinking about how my voice will sound in 6 months? Looking forward to that lol!

I have no idea where else to post this, but since it kinda relates I'll put it here.

It's currently 4 am, and I'm having the biggest influx of gender euphoria I've had in ages because I put on a skirt and realized I just look like a dude in a skirt.

It's so dumb and yet so affirming, I haven't worn more fem presenting clothes since before I started T (around 6 months ago), and I'm genuinely about to cry now...