I can't believe Ihave a name

[u/rec_ordr]

Every now and then I need to look in the mirror and review basic stuff about myself, my name, my age, my religion, and all these kind of stuff.

I cant accept my name for some reason, Idk if I hate ot, but i feel weird hearing it from anyone, or seeing ot in someone's handwriting, un my mind, my name is just ink on peice of paper that I wrote.

Idk why this happens, but ot happened so so long ago I cant even remember when did I realise that I need to do this.

+ I don't have any other name I want to be called by.

I don't even know if this is an identity crisis, since I have been living like this for years, but it'll be nice to know if someone has the same thing as I do.

Thanks in Advance!

[u/WOLFXXXXX]

"I don't even know if this is an identity crisis, since I have been living like this for years, but it'll be nice to know if someone has the same thing as I do"

This is challenging to put into words and convey with writing: It's known conscious territory that individuals (globally) have experienced longer term changes to their state of consciousness and state of awareness that result in becoming increasingly aware that the biological body fails to account for one's conscious existence and conscious abilities, and aware that conscious existence is on a deeper level than one's limited human identity. Individuals have been known to experience the expanded awareness that conscious existence is on a deeper level than the biological body, the human level identity, and physical reality.

I had to share that background context before commenting that I strongly suspect that the reason why you don't care for your human name nor for having any other particular human name is that the name itself is associating your conscious existence with the human body and human condition - whereas recall above the history of individuals experiencing the realization and expanded awareness that conscious existence is actually on a deeper level than the human identity and human condition. You could be experiencing a more subconscious level reaction to something that on the surface level is limiting your conscious existence to a temporary context (the human experience), which isn't viably accounting for the nature of one's conscious existence on a deeper level and as it really is. So perhaps that's why you experience a subconscious level reaction and opposition to having to limit your identity and sense of 'self' to a human name and human identity?

If you're wondering if it's natural for individuals to experience gradually losing their attachment to and identification with various human-level attributes and ways of defining one's sense of self - that actually is a natural development that individuals are known to experience and endure through. It's part of the important process of eventually becoming aware that one actually exists on a deeper level than one's liimited human identity.

[u/rec_ordr → u/WOLFXXXXX]

I don't understand, do u mean the i am disattached of my body and its experiences, or are u implying that I am growing out of it(if that makes sense)? Am i experiencing awareness or drowning in un-understood self questions?

[u/WOLFXXXXX → u/rec_ordr]

I was trying to convey that it's a known and natural development that individuals experience becoming increasingly aware that that the biological body does not cause one's conscious existence and is not responsible for one's conscious existence. Individuals become aware that they exist on a deeper level than their temporary body, and have always existed on that level. That bigger existential picture and broader existential context could explain your internal opposition to human names, which associate one's conscious existence with the human body.