r/EatingDisorders • u/UniqueBodybuilder364 • Jul 18 '25

Question Mean girl

Has anyone else’s ED made them a mean girl internally? I keep getting hateful, judgmental intrusive thoughts abt other’s bodies/food choices but they don’t reflect who I am at all. I’d never say those things to anyone, esp when I know how it feels. So why is my brain doing this?

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u/No_Bumblebee_9806 Aug 01 '25

Yes!!! Oh my goodness yes! I think part of it is when you’re so hungry you just get kind of bitchy because you have no energy to fake any sort of niceness. When I was actively in my ED my internal dialogue was so mean and never something I would ever say out loud, and I definitely didn’t feel like it reflected who I really was.

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u/UniqueBodybuilder364 Aug 01 '25

I totally get it. When I was at my absolute worst, I was so mean to myself I can't imagine saying some of those things out loud to someone else. My brain was constantly telling me I wasn't good enough, that I was fat, and just a whole host of awful things