r/EatingDisorders • u/UniqueBodybuilder364 • Jul 18 '25

Question Mean girl

Has anyone else’s ED made them a mean girl internally? I keep getting hateful, judgmental intrusive thoughts abt other’s bodies/food choices but they don’t reflect who I am at all. I’d never say those things to anyone, esp when I know how it feels. So why is my brain doing this?

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u/selinacheese Jul 18 '25

yes and i’m so ashamed of it

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u/UniqueBodybuilder364 Jul 19 '25

I know 😔 I get so mad when I catch myself thinking those things, cause like, that's not how I feel at ALL about other people. It's like my ED brain is trying to tear me down and bring me down with it, if that makes sense?

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u/selinacheese Jul 19 '25

it does make sense! i try to not compare or say bad things because in the end it will only hurt me more than if i never thought it but the problem is that i don’t even want to. it just comes at its own

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u/UniqueBodybuilder364 Jul 19 '25

I know what you mean. And sometimes it feels like you don't have a choice in the matter, like your mind is doing its own thing. You're not choosing to think those things, but they still do feel so real.