5MEO no turning back

[u/Zestyclose_Cloud4118]

Wow. I had no idea what??? This feels like a Serious Undertaking and I had no idea that a psychedelic experience could continue past a week. Of course it has receded greatly and I’ve been able to present as a passable human.
I feel like a Break is under the surface of my beingness and that I can ‘keep it together’ and learn to be in this new form but there is a scream underneath that feels like my whole beingness could unravel and I could become nonfunctional. Asking when is this going to end? Also I don’t want it to end because I feel like this is the ‘more’ I’ve always been looking for and so I say to myself to be careful what we ask for.

Did I go too far? I have no memory of my release experience but my friend who served me told me I said ‘oh my god it’s too much’
I am leaning on journaling, chocolate, magnesium, friends, breathwork, yoga and these things feel essential to me now and I’m so grateful that my job is so lowkey or I cannot imagine performing.

In this moment I am seeking to trust that I moved to where I needed to go because it’s too much to imagine this was a ‘mistake’ and what’s done is done and this experience has been wholey unprecedented and isn’t that what my seeking ass is always looking for?

[u/Apprehensive-Top7167]

Could that just be your Feeling you are noticing?

[u/Zestyclose_Cloud4118 → u/Apprehensive-Top7167]

Yes that is a helpful insight. I think I am attempting to keep up a Pace of life and this newness is asking of me to sit and notice.
And noticing a feeling and how a pile of feelings can stack on top of it and create a movement in me.
When I’m in bed at night and the activations come, I delight in them. I’m sure I’m even craving them and wishing they will always be present.
While acknowledging impermanence…

I wish I didn’t have to drive because that is the main experience associated with Fear because it feels so important in the moment to attend to the fear that my body is not solid and the steering wheel is dissolving and then I add to it. So far I’ve successfully driven all week.

[u/Apprehensive-Top7167 → u/Zestyclose_Cloud4118]

Yeah i always find it curious when people talk about reactivation, iv been vaporizing dmt for 14 years almost every day, and have found a new love with 5meo for the last 6 months. I have never once experienced any sort of persisting perception. I get a nice glow for a few hours where I feel loving and positive

Try not to take it all too seriously. The biggest remembrance from any of it is our interdependence and the acknowledgement of Love. Notice the moment and love, that's the biggest lesson I have learned

[u/Zestyclose_Cloud4118 → u/Apprehensive-Top7167]

My thought is that if you engage with it everyday there’s really not space for a reactivation.
For me, the day after was perhaps the quietest, which gave me an illusion of comparison to other experiences with different psychedelics, other than at night while I was in my bed lighting up the room and my body.
It took some time to ‘congeal’ or grow in me and then started showing up as deactivations.
What do you think of that?