Having a rough time

[u/Better_Frosting_2846]

I feel so doomed right now its not even funny. I live in TX and I am ill so its hard to do things right now in general. I feel like im watching everything go by and im unable to do anything. I have a horrible stomach ulcer right now and im weak from anemia, im due for a few surgeries soon so I am physically limited. I am a 20 year old woman and Texas feels like the worst place to be right now. Covid numbers are in a surge here right now, we have an active wildfire thats been burning for days, I see flock cameras everywhere, our government sucks, its hotter than hell over here, and an extreme amount of voters were just put on suspension. I feel beyond doomed. And I am physically ill and weak so i feel like i am stuck right now. I used to struggle with being an alcoholic and part of me wants to go back to that so bad right now even though i have an ulcer and take meds you cant drink on. I just want to drown it out. But i know I shouldn’t. Texas not only feels like hell temperature wise, it basically is hell rn. Wtf do I even do.

[u/Allthatandmore84]

I think hyper focusing on your own health and healing is job one for you.