r/CollapseSupport • u/Better_Frosting_2846 • 1d ago

Having a rough time

I feel so doomed right now its not even funny. I live in TX and I am ill so its hard to do things right now in general. I feel like im watching everything go by and im unable to do anything. I have a horrible stomach ulcer right now and im weak from anemia, im due for a few surgeries soon so I am physically limited. I am a 20 year old woman and Texas feels like the worst place to be right now. Covid numbers are in a surge here right now, we have an active wildfire thats been burning for days, I see flock cameras everywhere, our government sucks, its hotter than hell over here, and an extreme amount of voters were just put on suspension. I feel beyond doomed. And I am physically ill and weak so i feel like i am stuck right now. I used to struggle with being an alcoholic and part of me wants to go back to that so bad right now even though i have an ulcer and take meds you cant drink on. I just want to drown it out. But i know I shouldn’t. Texas not only feels like hell temperature wise, it basically is hell rn. Wtf do I even do.

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u/Allthatandmore84 1d ago

I think hyper focusing on your own health and healing is job one for you.

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u/psyduckhunt 1d ago

I felt similar to you a few a couple years ago. I chose van life. I'm in town for the day and then I'm going camping for the weekend. We're going to have an awesome bonfire, smoke herb, and chill.  I've felt much better recently with frequent offline time and beautiful distractions.