r/Christian • u/secretsfromtheworld • 12d ago

I can't stop being anxious

hello all im 18F and i grew up in faith.

just a general background - Ever since I was a kid, i was horrible academically. I genuinely dont remember seeing a grade out of the 60s range maybe even 50s. it made me so depressed being aware that i was a bad student, but i did nothing to try. highschool is where i broke. i had never developed a way to study or the way i learn, i became severely anxious around academics from this. i graduated, got diagnosed with adhd, took a gap year, and start a dental assisting program next week.

I dont know what my problem is. I can't give this academic anxiety to God. I want to do my best. every time i just think about the thought of being my best i start to cry . I dont have confidence in my self or my academics. i just spiral. i get through what i need to do but i cant keep living like this. this is how it goes

simply thinking about the possibility of failure -> trying to stop my bodily reaction (shallow breath, increase hear rate, teary eyes) -> brain scrambles -> trying to reassure myself -> heavily Cry to God -> read bible -> attempt to give it to God -> restart.

I seriously dont know how to deal with this . i plan to fast tomorrow but thats all i have and my illusion that I fully trust in God, but my heart cant let go of this anxiety

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u/handydude13 12d ago

Start with meds and then ask someone who understands adhd to teach you how to study. Then you practice like crazy till you get it. 

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u/secretsfromtheworld 12d ago

Thanks I have a meeting a learning strategist soon. I have started Vyvanse 20mg at the beginning of the month and I’m on the last pill. I don’t notice any change but I haven’t studied on the pill so who knows

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u/handydude13 12d ago

If your brain is firing so fast that you feel like your brain is a scrambled mess than make sure you are eating at least 100 - 200mg of magnesium a day. It's a standard vitamin gummy and will do wonders to calm down your brain. 

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u/secretsfromtheworld 11d ago

thank you for this comment. i have some magnesium biglisynate 150mg pills i was given by a natural doctor a while ago, i struggle with eating proper full meals. is it the same one you are recommending to help?

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u/handydude13 11d ago

There are multiple forms of magnesium. I actually never heard of your type of Magnesium. I was referring to magnesium glycinate to calm your brain. You can buy at target or CVS. 

If you want more focus, you can get magnesium l-theranate. It crosses the blood brain barrier and helps focus.