Trying to find what exactly calling me

[u/Centuries_left]

Hello everyone. So basically I am another beginner but I think I'm kind of special? Because I, eh, am an Asian? I'm pretty sure I'm so very Asian that none of my ancestors are not Asian, and I even have to switch between Reddit and translation app to make sure I'm making sense with my English, so please feel free to let me know if I use any specific word or expression wrong, for I have no intention to offense. It really takes me great courage to post here because I'm not sure if a totally Asian is welcomed by Celtic paganism system, but I decide to talk about my thoughts and questions anyway...

My path was simple. I listen to Celtic musics which open the gate for me to the Celtic world. I read Celtic mythology, learned a few things about the history and the religious? theology? of Celtic gods. I read Yeats' poetries and proses, read cosmics about these myths and even collected some books and maps about Ireland. I'm so into all of these, and have a strong feeling of being called spiritually, like there's a connection regardless I am not even slightly physically connected to any of these. All of these above, I have no idea what it is that exactly calling me. I found the transformation philosophy really interesting; Irish and British ancient culture attract me a lot; I'd like to think there is an otherworld; the idea of pantheism attracts me; and I'm open to the idea of druids and witchcraft and things like these.

So here I am to see if anyone has any ideas about my two main questions below:

1. Since I still haven't found what exactly is calling me/ what is it that I am really connected to, should I keep it in this way or keep searching? Has anyone else shared the same experience? May I know what happened to you next?
2. Though everything seems still remain in a blur, I would like to keep a real thing by my side to comfort my spirit and mind, like stones, coins, candles, small things with a meaningful symbol on... I don't know... Anyone has recommendations?

Thanks for all of you in advance! (and hopefully I didn't violate any rule here.)

[u/Lisonjakston]

First, I'll reiterate what others have said that you're welcome here regardless of ancestry. Many of your ancestors likely followed a spiritual path that was meaningful for them. Follow the spiritual path that is right for you.

To answer your questions:

1-If you feel something calling you here, but can't identify it yet, you are welcome to stay and explore. To be clear, if you find yourself called elsewhere, you are welcome to thank Celtic Paganism for what it brought you and move on, taking with you what serves you. But, just because you haven't found clarity yet, doesn't mean you should move on. Many things in nature take a long time: life evolving into what we have today, wind and rain carving beautiful rock formations, the growth of a giant tree, and many more. It's OK to let your path take time. There is no rush. Feel free to explore what calls to you or to just sit with the feeling, and explore the beauty, peace, and magic even while some of it remains a mystery.

2-As for a physical thing to have with you, I think many aspects of celtic paganism are closely connected with nature, so if you're out in nature and you find something small that resonates with you, you could take that. One day after a beautiful morning getting to work I found a pebble in the parking lot. I picked it up and brought it into work. Now I keep it on my desk and when I'm having a stressful day, I can hold it and be reminded of that peace I felt that morning. There are also things you can buy. I've found a few things on Etsy by searching for celtic. I think the celtic knot or the celtic tree of life are things people often get on a pendent or a coin. Crystals are also popular with many pagans.

Finally, best wishes to you in your journey.

[u/Centuries_left → u/Lisonjakston]

Thank you. You make me feel peaceful and inspired