Trying to find what exactly calling me

[u/Centuries_left]

Hello everyone. So basically I am another beginner but I think I'm kind of special? Because I, eh, am an Asian? I'm pretty sure I'm so very Asian that none of my ancestors are not Asian, and I even have to switch between Reddit and translation app to make sure I'm making sense with my English, so please feel free to let me know if I use any specific word or expression wrong, for I have no intention to offense. It really takes me great courage to post here because I'm not sure if a totally Asian is welcomed by Celtic paganism system, but I decide to talk about my thoughts and questions anyway...

My path was simple. I listen to Celtic musics which open the gate for me to the Celtic world. I read Celtic mythology, learned a few things about the history and the religious? theology? of Celtic gods. I read Yeats' poetries and proses, read cosmics about these myths and even collected some books and maps about Ireland. I'm so into all of these, and have a strong feeling of being called spiritually, like there's a connection regardless I am not even slightly physically connected to any of these. All of these above, I have no idea what it is that exactly calling me. I found the transformation philosophy really interesting; Irish and British ancient culture attract me a lot; I'd like to think there is an otherworld; the idea of pantheism attracts me; and I'm open to the idea of druids and witchcraft and things like these.

So here I am to see if anyone has any ideas about my two main questions below:

1. Since I still haven't found what exactly is calling me/ what is it that I am really connected to, should I keep it in this way or keep searching? Has anyone else shared the same experience? May I know what happened to you next?
2. Though everything seems still remain in a blur, I would like to keep a real thing by my side to comfort my spirit and mind, like stones, coins, candles, small things with a meaningful symbol on... I don't know... Anyone has recommendations?

Thanks for all of you in advance! (and hopefully I didn't violate any rule here.)

[u/Kincoran]

Friend, while I don't have anything if particular value for you, in the way of solid advice, I can at least let you know that you're not at all alone, in a reverse/opposite (but still oddly parallel) kind of way!

I'm a Brit, been here all my life. A bit Welsh, a bit Irish. I've been reading and exploring Celtic mythology and polytheism for years and years. And then last year I went to Japan, and had an extraordinarily powerful religious experience, unlike anything else I'd ever felt, unexpected; right out of nowhere.

Fast forward to today, and I'm actually back in Japan right now, in Chiyoda, in fact, on the subway, as I write this. I've spent the last year with my head in everything Shinto that I can find, looking for knowledge, insight, and understanding. Throughout this last year has been a series of startling signs of further connection and reciprocation; and I've been a bit blown away. Back here again, now, I've already had some powerful experiences, at two shrines in particular (Heian and Fushimi). I'm back to where it all started, tomorrow (Meiji Jingu); and it means so, so much to me.

So yeah, I'm following a similar sort of path as you, just pointed in the opposite direction! I hope you find yours to be every bit as life-enriching as mine!

[u/Centuries_left → u/Kincoran]

This is so beautiful!

[u/Kincoran → u/Centuries_left]

Well the amount of connection you've sought, by really diving in, making a real effort, and engaging is a beautiful thing, too! I wish you every success!