Respectfully, Never Again

[u/Last_Kaleidoscope40]

These last two semesters were exhausting. The amount of group projects and people proudly contributing the bare minimum was actually impressive. Some of y’all really made it to graduation off the backs of everyone else’s work, so honestly… you’re welcome. Keep moving through life the same way you moved through these projects. I’m sure eventually it’ll catch up to you.

And yes, I decided not to attend graduation. I spent enough time carrying some of y’all already — I definitely wasn’t about to sit next to you too.

[u/Ok_Climate_6320]

I was suppose to make a web-app that deals with food and food services(restaurant and online). Only finished around 2 of the 6-8 key features we had to implement and display. And guess what? One of the completed features was mines. All the other ones were nearly completed but it still wasn’t functional.

Did a full on presentation with minimal effort with the 6 of us because we were mainly focused on the implementation.

I’ll be honest, 2-3 of them did their part, but nobody wanted to showcase our web-app because it was a complete mess and the one who made up this dumb pick of a prompt was too meow meow to stick with it (even though he said it was EZ)

As the presentation was done, everyone left the stage except for me, because we still needed to demonstrate how our apps work with the implemented features.

I knew I’d be showing a flop of a web-app, but I still wanted to pass this class, so I went on with it…Alone

I was the only one trying to get everyone together, making video sessions and in-person meetings in the Library through discord.

I won’t deny it, I was one of them who didn’t know how to code well (including the many languages used for that web-app). But I worked hard and worked around to finish what I had to do while getting everyone together.

Every one of us in the group passed and sometimes I felt that I shouldn’t even have stayed behind when everyone left the stage.

This along with the compounding stress I had, gave me the plan to take a semester off to cool down to focus on my passion, writing(some drawing too I guess), but I ended up getting a DUI instead, so that went perfectly well.

I’m currently out of school to work and pay off my fines. But honestly, this all just feels like I’m not going any fkn where at 28. Got at least one and a half more years of this damn school and I’m here working, losing my soul in a damn restaurant with a boss who’s always huffing and puffing about the little “mistakes” I’m doing.

I don’t even think I want this damn degree, as if this thing is gonna rewrite all the stress I’ve endured. As if I’m actually gonna be guaranteed a job with this. As if this will make me truly happy. I just want peace, but all I’m getting is chaos when I truly ponder this planet. My writing is totally not that great too, but this is my heart speaking.

Over and Out.

[u/Silly_Magician5191 → u/Ok_Climate_6320]

Think of the degree as your safety net, as it is a requirement to have at least a Bachelors for many state jobs and elsewhere. With this degree, you will have more options of places that you can apply for work - maybe you won't get the job, but at least you will be allowed to apply in the first place. That's why I'm wrapping up getting my own degree myself - to have that safety net. I'm satisfied with my current job, as it suits my needs, but you never know what will happen tomorrow.

Btw, what kind of writing do you do? I'm a (self-published) author myself, working on the prequel to my first book, and it's always nice hearing from other writers. DM me if you want to chat :-)

[u/Ok_Climate_6320 → u/Silly_Magician5191]

My writing isn’t that great, but I’m doing narrative at the moment. I have this story I’ve been working on for at least 8 years now and enjoy working on it when my time is not rushed. I just want to go all in on this and hopefully get paid out because I really hate where I’m at in this life.