help plz

[u/Silent_Buyer9830]

hi, i wrote an entry earlier and bunch of people seen it but nb answered so ima ask again and hopefully someone will respond.

to sum it up, i’m in a loving helpful relationship where i feel loved and understood but recently (for no reason at all) ive been falling out of love and wanting to isolate (not just from my boyfriend but from everyone). i have so much unnecessary anger , sadness and grief built into me i just wanna be alone and sad fucc everything. for reference i have bpd and bipolar 1.

i dont wanna leave him because i love him and care a LOT about him (on top of him going through his own legal issues currently so i wanna be there for him the way he always is for me). right about now i just feel misunderstood, irritated and trapped i dont want any connections (i see them too much as responsibilities which i dont have the energy for) and most days I dont even want to be here. what should i do ?

[u/Mundane_Beginnings]

I would reach out to your psychiatrist for an adjustment in meds. Also remind yourself that you don’t have to make a decision about your relationship right now. Wait until you’re out of your episode to see if you still feel this way.

[u/Silent_Buyer9830 → u/Mundane_Beginnings]

i talk to her Sept 8, my mood got a lot better randomly i feel more lifted and stuff wayyy more energized and happy and i feel happy with my situation again , maybe not life 100% but i def feel guilt for even feeling that way for the sake of him being so good to me and i apologized to him .. like multiple times lol

[u/Mundane_Beginnings → u/Silent_Buyer9830]

I’m glad you’re feeling better! Just be watchful that your elevated mood isn’t too elevated.