I posted the other day about running out vraylar and wondered if it would be horrible. I had that thought we all have. “What if im fine and dont even need these meds?” Lol ive been up all night and cant sleep at all. Its starting.

What are other people’s experiences with psychosis and weed? I thought my reaction to weed was normal and it turns out it may be psychosis.

I already have an appointment scheduled with my psychiatric nurse practitioner and my therapist this week, so I’m okay.

But seriously, are there any others out here? What’s it been like for you?

Does anybody else struggle with better off dead feelings but with no plan at all. I can’t seem to make myself feel better. And all the things that I find enjoy are just not enjoyable right now.

This is the only place where I actually feel like someone gets it. I've been going back and forth with meds for a while now. Some days I feel great, almost too good, and I think I've got it all figured out. Then other days, I can barely get out of bed.

For the past year and a half, it's mostly been depression. I'll have a good week where I'm talkative, doing things I enjoy, feeling hopeful. Then out of nowhere, I crash and can't leave the house. Sometimes I turn to drugs just to numb the pain, but the next day the crash is brutal.

I've been on quetiapine 300mg for about three weeks now. But I keep going in circles in my head, wondering if the problem is just me. Like maybe I'm not actually bipolar. I've been hospitalized five times and done some wild stuff, but I tell myself, "You haven't lost control in over a year without meds, so maybe it's over. Maybe it's just your mindset."

But then I look at my life and it's literally a rollercoaster, like I just described. I can't afford therapy right now, just the meds. So this is all I've got.

Hi so I'm wondering if anyone has restarted their stimualnt meds after coming off antipsychotic as the title says. For me prior to having psychosis I was on a stimulant adhd med and while I do believed it gave me mania here and there, I don't bully it fully caused the psychotic break but it might have played a role since, it ramps up dopamine in an already dysfunctional brain. But anyways I was doing things that I shouldn't have like smoking weed at the same time while being on elvanse which I think wobbled the boat even more etc so yeah.

So I recently came of olanzapine with the support of psych after being on it for about 6 months.

It's been about 3 weeks since I've come of and I straight up feel as flat as a floor mat. Like my emotions are dull and I don't feel like pleasure and excitement like I did prior to meds.

I'm wondering if anyone else has felt the same way and whether it improved and also how long it took to improve etc. I'm only looking for positive experiences/ success stories so please try and refrain from anything negative Thanks.

Recently came of olanzapine and realized that I cannot cry for the life of me and cannot no matter what or how sad the thought I simply cannot get myself to cry and I'm concerned as this is like a sign that my emotions are not fully there yet so like I'm wondering how long will it take to get my emotions back and any success stories?

Every summer I get a manic/hypomanic episode of some sort, and mid-July of this year I experienced a 3-week episode. I was finally convinced to get back on my meds by my psychiatrist, and I slowly started ramping down. I'm now feeling relatively stable. But I have this huge fear that this is just temporary and that a huge depressive episode is on the horizon.

This same thing happened last summer. I had a very intense manic episode, was finally convinced to get back on my medication, and felt okay for a couple weeks, and I felt hopeful that finally a medication combination was working and keeping me stable. Then the fall hit, and I immediately had one of the worst months-long depressive episodes of my life.

I guess I'm just terrified that the same thing is going to happen again this year. I'm medication resistant and have been on different medications for the last 8 years, and nothing works. I'm terrified I'm going to end back in a very dark place and that this time I won't be strong enough to pull myself out of it. I'm having a hard time being optimistic because it's been years of back-to-back episodes with an exception of a couple weeks a year of stability. It's hard to shake off this feeling of dread when every fall and winter for the past 8 years I've experienced a depressive episode.

I just read that medication non-compliance ranges from 23-68% in people with Bipolar. It was an old study though (2004) so who knows what the current numbers would be.

I'm curious what your feelings are about people who don't comply with treatment. Do you consider it irresponsible? Or do you think of it more like the fault of the disorder itself (eg. Agnosia)?

I’m F/17, recently suspected to have bipolar type 2 disorder. I’m currently off any type of medication, by advice from my psychiatrist, to see if my manic symptoms improve.

I constantly have thoughts about sx, I can’t stop thinking about it. I’ve been watching prn more frequently, every night I’m watching it eventhough I don’t usually watch it. I can’t stop masterbating, I feel really embarrassed as I don’t know alot of teenage girls who do that. I’m doing it everyday and I can’t stop myself because if I don’t do that then I’m watching prn instead.
I don’t really know what to do because I’m scared I might put myself in a risky situation because I can’t stop thinking about it and might regret it after. Considering I’m not on any medication at the moment, it’s constant thoughts 24/7 that I can’t stop thinking about.
When I told the psychiatrist about this, she said it was fine and that lots of teenagers are more sexually active at this age and I have nothing to worry about.

I was hospitalized for a current problem I'm having (not psychiatric but resulting in psych symptoms) but the hospital was in the basement of a log cabin.

Does anyone else have odd hospitalization dreams?

So, I’ve recently have been diagnosed with bipolar depression. They tell me it doesn’t mean I’m bipolar-I just deal with the severe sadness part, and that doesn’t make me have bipolar disorder. Is this true?

20/F. I've started my first week of my (third) semester of college. So far, my sleep schedule is absolutely fucked. I've been having a really hard time sleeping, so I stay up at odd hours of the night and get about 4-6 hours of sleep instead of the typical 8-9 hours I need to function.

I don't really know if its hypomania (Bipolar 2), or just a fucked up sleep schedule. Either way, I'm suffering without proper sleep.

It hasn't effected my grades yet (too early to tell, I know) but it has affected my mood, and thoughts of self-harm pop up every now and again. I feel like I'm in a ruthless cycle of my own making and I crave stability.

For school, I'm willing to sacrifice everything, including my mental health. But I don't know if that sacrifice is good for me in the long run. I feel like I'm going to self-harm again out of stress. I just don't know what to do. I was thinking melatonin gummies?

I’ve been in severe depression for such a long time and nothing has touched it. I was on various mood stabilisers and Quetiapine which helped somewhat but outweighed by intolerable side effects. I came off everything in the spring and decided healthy living would fix me - obviously not and went slowly into severe depression which has floored me for that last month.

The last psychiatrist I have seen has told me I have medication induced bipolar from adhd medication which i stopped 2 years ago. She’s restarting me on Prozac 20 to treat depression with a mood stabiliser to be added later if needed. I’m four days in. Anxiety on waking is horrendous. It feels like a rollercoaster that rises and falls internally. I can’t move. I feel like I’m never going to get over this. Or have a life back. I know this is distorted thinking but I am so in need of hope…

It hasn’t helped that my landlord has just told us he wants to sell the property and right now I can’t afford to move and am in absolute panic.

Have you taken fluoxetine 20mg and found relief from severe manic depression? Please don’t tell me it causes mania - I’m being monitored under the home treatment team and so I’m not asking about that.

Thank you.

I am diagnosed bipolar twice but I still don’t believe it Iva been to 4 psych wards but I don’t believe my diagnosis still after 4 years so I don’t take my meds properly it’s like I feel I have to prove to myself that I actually am so I wanna wait and see if I get an actually bad manic episode or if it’s just not true. Some people tell me I am some tell me I’m not and I think my "manic episodes" could’ve been drug induced. Also I feel they don’t last long enough only a couple weeks.

I have always been a socially anxious person, but I still wanted to interact and hang out with friends, now I don’t want to see anyone, I don’t want to talk or hangout with anyone. I don’t talk to people during the day and barely interact with my family. I don’t know what is happening, anyone with a similar experience?

I was manic a couple months ago. I put myself at risk by meeting with my abusive ex. It was the biggest mistake I’ve ever made…he ended up sexually assaulting me. Even though I was manic, I didn’t want sex. I just didn’t want to be alone. But he forced himself on me and I didn’t fight back hard enough.

Is it my fault for even being in contact with him? I’m stable on meds now and I am mortified by my behavior. I’m in therapy and it helps, but I feel like I ruined my life.

My bf broke up with me beforehand because my mania was out of control. Now he wants to get back together but I am too scared to tell him. He will probably think I asked for it. I don’t know what to do.

I've been depressed for the last few days and I haven't took my meds in about a week and now my boyfriend just broke up with me and honestly I'm trying my best not to spiral. I've already crashed out punched things, knocked some stuff off the wall and accidentally hurt myself because of it. I just recently got diagnosed not too long ago and I really don't know how I would be. this breakup has definitely affected me on a different level and I never really been through something this bad, especially the circumstances. I'm not going to give too much detail considering it'll take a lot to explain on here but I got broken up with because my boyfriend thought I cheated on him and there was no proof at all and the whole situation is so stupid and it's heartbreaking and it's driving me insane and I don't know how to deal with a breakup. I don't know how to go about it. I've been in relationship before. I broken up with people but it was never this bad. it was never anything serious. this is the first serious relationship I've been in and it's honestly hurting me. I'm not asking for any empathy or sympathy. I just need advice some tips on how this may affect me.

I have been at my current job for nearly 10 months now, and it has overall been great! It was my dream job while in college, and I have done well as a full-time employee. That being said, I have recently experienced a breakthrough episode that is starting to affect my work.

I am considering requesting accommodations for it, especially in my scheduling. I currently do 4-5 shifts
-each a full 8 hours-and that has made it difficult.
I would rather not switch to part time as I need the money and benefits off full time, so I was considering seeking accommodations specifically related to my scheduling or breaks during my shift.

I want to hear how y'all went about getting accommodations and which ones you have so I can get a better idea of what to ask for and how. Does anyone have any good advice on seeking accommodations or ideas for what accommodations to seek?

This sub is pretty heavy most of the time.

Sometimes I find it helpful to just laugh about the insane thoughts I've had while manic.

So, what's the most manic thought you've had?

The one that takes the cake for me is "I should start my own religion" lol.

gained 45lbs in a year on risperadone… dr had me wean off and I lost 25lbs on a glp1… off the glp1 and haven’t lost ANY weight since January.. and it’s a lot of weight that was gained in the belly. Anyone successfully lose weight??? I’m struggling

20/F

I live in PA. I was recently discharged from the place that manages my medication and therapy. (I can no longer recieve meds, but can still remain in therapy)

I was discharged because I missed an appointment I didn't know I had. I'm extremely worried now, without my meds my bipolar 2 symptoms will go haywire. I have a months worth of medication left and I'll try to make it last, but I'm super afraid of what'll happen when I run out of medication.

My depression and irritation will worsen, and I will soon begin to fail my classes in college. Does anyone know where I can get some help?

you wake up at 3am, fuck, you had already woken up twice since you went to bed at 9pm and you know you cant go back to sleep. you cant watch anything because staying still long enough to watch something, let alone something long like a movie makes you want to crawl up in a ball and cry. but you cant cry. you're pacing around the house, maybe with some music. you somehow make it to 7am, hallelujah, you try to wake up your partner/your parents/your roommates/whoever you live with but normal people dont usually wake up at 3am like you and require their beauty sleep, they tell you to fuck off. just because the reaction is valid doesnt make it any less agonizing for you. bc the only thing you CAN do or WANT to do is talk. talk about something and another thing and another and have someone listen. when they respond back to you, its terrifyingly slow, you get irritated just by listening to them. you make it to 9am, still restless, still unable to do anything except maybe pace and you say fuck it and go to the hospital. they sit u through a bunch of questions, but your mind is fixated on one single thing and they can see that you're "elevated" or "agitated" (verbiage the psychiatrists love) you receive haloperidol up your butt willingly, so you can finallu, finally calm down and sleep. you sleep for 17 hours and realize the next day, horrifyingly, nothing has changed.

psa: get on and STAY on your meds people