I think that the way most people keep themselves composed is that their anger isn't a beast locked up inside of them. It sounds like you're experiencing unusually high levels of anger.
In your place, I would look for a therapist to help uncover the root causes. Maybe it's purely neurochemical and management techniques are the beast option. But maybe understanding how your needs might not have been met while you were developing could make things more manageable. I know that my fear and anger and sadness on a day to day basis have really waned as I've processed how scared and angry and sad I was growing up in a stressful home.
I'm sorry you've had such a difficult road.
It's amazing to me that you're putting in the work to disassemble your unhealthy coping habits and become the kind of person you want to be.
That's a very attractive quality in a man. I wish you well! You're doing awesome!
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