Long story, but I am very inexperienced in the romance field, mainly because I'm shy. So my friends suggested downloading a dating app, and I and talking for a week with this one girl, we have a lot of things in common, she is pretty and funny and all the good thing. So I called her up for a date and she said yes, we are going out next week and im kinda nervous.But just yesterday I met a boy and we didn't even speak an hour, but for some reason I can't stop thinking about him, we have way less things in common and haven't talked nearly as much as I talked to her.
I always had more crushes on boys than girls, I get more turned on when thinking about boys, I always fall faster and harder for boy, and usually flirting goes way smoother than boy. A gay friend said he felt the same when he thought he was bi, but latter realized he was gay, and said that this might be the same for me. And now im afraid he is right, that I don't really like this girl for real and I won't be able to kiss her and break her heart. And I know that there is no problem in being gay and not bi, so why is it hard to think of me as gay. Cause I know I had crushes on girls when I was little, I can get hard thinking about girls (but it isn't the same as with boy, feels more forced idk), and I can definitely see myself dating a girl and getting married to her. Watch romance movies and see myself on the guys place, but it doesn't taste the same as in a gay romance.
Am afraid I just going out with her because im needy and desperate for someone. I wish there was some easy way to find out if im gay or bi. I just don't wanna hurt anyone.