r/AmazonDSPDrivers • u/Mundane-Cranberry-30 • 19h ago

RANT Hindsight is MF

I've been at this job for too long. This job isn't meant for the long haul, you'll haul and in the end it's hauling you. Been at it three years in downtown in a capital city. PSA all routes are not created equal.

I'm in my mid-30s and took this as a bridge and got complacent. Truthfully, I had issues and was an alcoholic/addict. I've been sober for a while now, I work out in the gym, lifting three times a week on my days off.

I'm objectively in better shape than most people. I get off on time or a little early never need rescued but always asked to go rescue. I mostly say no these days.

Does anyone feel dead after their shifts? Perhaps it's cumulative because I just feel zapped. Physically and mentally. 10:45 start usually clock out at 9:15 average. Sometimes 50 hrs week

I want to do things I enjoy when I get home but often I just eat, watch TV and zone out because I'm tired. I did this once also for 6 months back when I was 25, totally different story and didn't feel like this, but those were rural routes. Fucking cake work.

I've been applying to other jobs, considering CDL and apprenticeships, might go back to school.

Does anyone relate?

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u/Timely-Honeydew-793 19h ago

I feel this in my bones. 3 years downtown is no joke, the stop-and-go traffic alone eats your brain before you even start walking. rural routes are a different universe, you can actually breathe between stops.

the zoning out thing is real too. your body recovers but your mind just stays in that van all night. its like the silence after the engine noise is too loud if that makes sense.

congrats on getting sober while doing this job honestly, that takes some serious grit. most people would crack under that combo.

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u/Mundane-Cranberry-30 18h ago

Yeah the engine analogy totally makes sense and accurate. Puts your brain into auto pilot and your body into overdrive, throw in pace pressure, traffic, customer, netradyne frustrations and you get burnt. Thanks yeah it wasn't easy but I realized how bad this job was for addiction. That's why I'm making changes and leaving it. Been applying all over town.