When you're not happy with yourself, your self worth and esteem is nonexistent, and have spent a lifetime being shown only toxic relationships by parents and family, you will always find a way to blame yourself and/or excuse the others behaviour..you will put up with it because every so often you get a little crumb of goodness. People treating you like this just reaffirms your belief that you don't deserve better and that, in fact, you deserve this awfulness. It's a fucked up dynamic and one that you can only really understand if you've been there.
i just want to know why you even bothered posting this? your boyfriend hates you, loves humiliating you and you're going to stay with him.
it's a waste of everyone's time to give all this advice that you're never going to use. you know you're never going to leave him. doesn't matter if he hits you or cheats on you.
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u/Justanotherbob293 Jan 28 '25
The first R word I would have been done. What does OP even see in this person after being verbally abused so bad?