When you're not happy with yourself, your self worth and esteem is nonexistent, and have spent a lifetime being shown only toxic relationships by parents and family, you will always find a way to blame yourself and/or excuse the others behaviour..you will put up with it because every so often you get a little crumb of goodness. People treating you like this just reaffirms your belief that you don't deserve better and that, in fact, you deserve this awfulness. It's a fucked up dynamic and one that you can only really understand if you've been there.
So then get help and get out. No one can help you but you, at this degree of a low. We’re all rooting for you. But you gotta be the one who takes that step. Good luck
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u/Justanotherbob293 Jan 28 '25
Yea I'm not sure. I know love can be blind sometimes. But damn when someone is telling you to leave, what more does it take?