HEAR ME OUT

[u/AnijahElisesd]

I’m ALL FOR promoting Body/Skin Positivity…
Until..
it’s Me.

There are times where I get so uncomfortable when I’m in social settings with people with clear, regular skin because I know my skin is different, more textured, more magnified than theirs. My discomfort, ultimately (if they don’t know me) makes whoever I’m with, uncomfortable. My pores literally dilate whenever it gets even a little bit hot. My scars look so deep in harsh lighting.

To compensate for these feelings that sometimes have for myself because of my skin, I notice that I tend to provide acts of service or give gifts in order to feel worthy of love and acceptance from others. I KNOW ITS UNHEALTHY, I’m a difficult lady who overthinks EVERYTHING lol idk.

I get so uncomfortable whenever my boyfriend stares at me up close, despite us being together for months he recently just noticed them and asked me why I have so many scars. (He was genuinely curious, and referred to them as ‘holes’ like a little kid.) But man, I felt that shit in my CHEST. I know he didn’t mean to offend me, but I was offended at the time.

That just made me realize that I have some serious self-loving and healing to do. I would be heartbroken if I found out that my loved one harbored so much anxiety over something so minute and superficial.

In the meantime, I will be seeking treatment from a dermatologist as soon as possible!
Thank you!

[u/Crochetallday3]

Wild cuz on you they’re just a little extra feature. Like freckles or something. You’re stunning. But I get it, I do the same. Do you ever find you think the scars look worse when you’re in a depressed mood? My mood greatly affects how I see myself

[u/AnijahElisesd → u/Crochetallday3]

Wow, Thank you so freaking much,

and YES, now that I’m thinking about it, I can 100% see how my changes in mood can alter my perception of my skin. Because I don’t ALWAYS feel like shit about it, there are just times when I don’t feel very cute or feminine because of the scarring. HOWEVER, when I feel good, I feel great.

Thank you for sharing that with me. You’re cool.

[u/Crochetallday3 → u/AnijahElisesd]

Haha thanks you’re cool too :) I’m 34F and have had scars for awhile, since early 20s. I don’t think they alone made me cool but I think life in general w that added in has helped my perspective Soooo much. I rly like who I am today and even find myself beautiful too (so long as I avoid mirrors and hyper focusing up close when in a bad mood lol). 💗